#why is there like no sky fanart dude

[radio-kyoma]

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He looks much sharper in the new one and I think that fits him a lot better plus I like his nose better in the new one 🫶

- Mostly just made this so I could finally make a charm of him

[countryrebel1995]

I didn't want to have to make this post, I've seen enough shipping drama on Tumblr over the years that I usually steer clear of it, but there’s been so much Nooshy bashing in the tags lately that I feel compelled to weigh in on it.

Why do people like Nooshy? Well, to put it simply, even though she’s never the center of attention in "Sing 2", Nooshy manages to be a girl with layers, and there's a lot to appreciate about her. When we're first introduced to her, she's a street performer so she can make the money that she needs to survive, but she’s also genuinely passionate about her craft - she loves to dance - and she enjoys getting a chance to share that passion with someone else whenever they come along.

While she can be snarky and prickly and slow to trust strangers, she’s also very nice once you get to know her. After a young turtle kid almost screws up her performance, she's still very playful and accommodating towards him. When she’s brought backstage to the Crystal theater, she compliments some dude's hat just to make him feel good about himself. While she initially agrees to help Johnny because he offers to pay her, she starts to stick up for him and genuinely support him, because the way Klaus treats him isn't right. She decides to help the Moon Theater troupe put on their big show, even though she's only known these people for about a week and their plan will surely be very dangerous, because the way Jimmy Crystal treats them isn't right either and she wants to help them stick it to the man. After Johnny tells her that he and his family used to be a gang of notorious criminals, Nooshy never judges them for their shady past, and is actually quite happy to see how close he and his father are now (especially since it's implied that she might not even have parents herself). And during "A Sky Full Of Stars", she encourages Johnny to never give up and follow his heart, because he's her friend and she wants to see him succeed.

Nooshy is snarky and mischievous, but underneath it all, she's actually a very kind girl, and very loyal towards the people who earn her respect. And by the end of "Sing 2", she gets her happy ending when she not only gets a new paying career doing what she loves, but also finds a place where she belongs among the Moon Theater troupe.

The reason why I just went off on that rather long tangent, dissecting her character, is to drive home the point that Nooshy has done nothing in the canon films to warrant the way people talk about her sometimes.

I've seen people insult everything about her and her fans for shipping reasons, because they see her as a threat to their preferred ships (even though she and Johnny are not even canonically a couple by the end of "Sing 2"). And there's a real double standard when it comes to this too, because no other character who's been shipped with Johnny over the years gets this kind of treatment. Meena doesn't, Ash doesn't, Ryan doesn't (even though the claim that Nooshy haters sometimes make - that people only like her as one half of a ship - could just as easily be said about him).

And this is really nothing new. Characters getting trash-talked over shipping wars is a tale as old as time when it comes to fandoms, and people are entitled to their opinions. The reason why I made this post is because lately, the Nooshy bashing is starting to cross a line.

Over the last few months, I've been seeing a growing number of comments complaining about people including Nooshy in their fanart. I've also been seeing a growing number of posts outright insulting people who like Nooshy or like to ship her with Johnny, saying that they're stupid and shallow and should just go away because they’re a blight on the fandom.

How about no.

In a fandom, people are allowed to like whatever character they like, or ship whatever couple they like, so long as they're not hurting anyone. If you hate Nooshy so much that you can't stand seeing any fanart of her or fanfics of her, because you don't want to be reminded that she exists, then I'm sorry but you're either just going to have to deal with that or stop engaging with the parts of the fandom where people want to appreciate her. Because quite frankly, your hatred for this character is no one else’s problem except your own and people are not going to stop liking her just for your benefit.

[vickozone]

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#121 Oliver. He’s dead and JON! YOU’RE OKAY!

#122 zombies and Jon’s first instinct from waking up from a 6 month coma is to read a statement. Icon.

#123 He just got back and Melanie wants to kill him and something is up with Martin. Also, The Web, I suppose. Coding?

#124 More Simon. What a guy. Also, Jon is… very concerned for Martin…

#125 The Slaughter is back and Melanie! CALM DOWN! MY HEADPHONES ARE ON LIFE SUPPORT AS IT IS!

#126 The Spiral clarity + Martin is being manipulated (SHE STABBED HIM!?)

#127 Another letter to Jonah. AND ELIAS IS JUST CHILLIN IN PRISON. GO OFF, KING!

#128 Breekon is nothing without Hope. The institute and ooo! Jon eye powers!

#129 Guy drowned in grandpa’s house and JON NEEDS AN ANCHOR! Also, very homosexual interaction.

#130 Meat ritual and JON! NO, SELF HARM IS BAD! YOU BETTER NOT DO WHAT I THINK YOU’RE IMPLYING!

#131 AAAA! AAAA! OH. OH NO. Jared is the Boneturner and Helen is an absolute queen <3

#132 Jon saves Daisy!! Yay! She is also The Hunt, but, whatever. The tapes drew him back…

#133 The Hunt ritual, and Basira… has feelingsss. The Hunt is about the chase, not the kill.

#134 The Extinction!? NO. Also Lukas is the worst. Hate that guy.

#135 “Have I ever told you how much I hate the sun?” -Manuela Lol, The Dark, The Vast, and The Lonely funded the space expedition.

#136 Annabelle! Creepy celeb puppet. And Daisy telling Jon he’s not responsible for everything gives hope. Yes! Therapy!

#137 The Slaughter ritual & Gertrude was fond of Gerry :( The Watcher’s Crown??

#138 “And then the sky blinked.” Elias is literally the ‘no need to thank me’ meme and Jonah and Smirke knew about the 14 fears and then he dies or smthn

#139 The life and crimes of Agnes. Jon MAYBE saw Peter’s plan and- PRAISE THE LORD, JON LIKES MARTIN!!

#140 Stupid Maxwell. Also, Santa is working working with the Devine Host (/j) & we’re going on a trip! :D

#141 Salesa statement from boat guy. Oh, Jon, I see why Martin has a crush on you now. 10/10 voice acting on everyone’s part.

#142 JEEZ, JON! You gave this poor woman literal trauma! Goodness…

#143 oh, it’s Manuela! Jon looked AT the darkness and HELEN IS A SAVIOR!

#144 MARTIN! We do NOT talk to people like that! Especially Daisy! This isn’t you! The Extinction is real, I guess, but, come on! Not cool.

#145 Gertrude is COLD. Dude’s head is somewhere in the institute- uh-

#146 5 people? Goodness, Jon. He can’t control it though, can he? Helen got Marcus and Basira is off to meet with Annabelle friggin Cane.

#147 Okay. No, he can control it. I love Anna. I also got Nikola flashbacks. Oh boy.

#148 Not 5 seconds in and Elias gets assaulted. Jon is worried for Martin and he read a statement about The Eye. A.

#149 Concrete Jungle. Oh and Martin is using Lonely powers. Greaaat.

#150 Homophobic endless houses and Melanie really said “nuh uh” to her job

#151 Simon is my new husband. Uhhh. He answered Martin’s questions, yada yada, he has Lonely powers

#152 More of The Buried. Jon and Helen chat more about avatar crap.

#153 Another odd desolation flesh cult, also Trevor and chic is here and he is HUNGRY

#154 Gerry’s dead dad gives a statement. J + M both F bomb, very gay, eye gouging is the only way out. (“It’s pretty drastic.” “What you gotta gouge your eyes out or something?” “…” “…” “…” “Fuck off.” <- funniest conversation in the whole series)

#155 Guy kills others to keep himself alive + MEL IS REMOVING HER EYES- OKAY-

#156 More extinction about an abandoned park and I am very scared for Martin

#157 another extinction- OMG MEL AND GEORGIE! Did… Helen stab Jon?

#158 SO MUCH. Martin played Lukas, Daisy is feral, ELIAS IS JONAH, Not!Sasha is loose, disaster duo is here, Martin is stuck in Lonely, Gertrude wanted ‘Elias’ to kill her. WHAT.

#159 Peter shares his story, is evaporated. “I see you, Jon…”

#160

Look at the sky, Martin. It’s looking back.

I OPEN THE DOOR!

[polar-artist]

silly intro :3

(I know this is a long post but PLEASE READ! I spent a lot of time making this so I would appreciate if you read till the end!)

about me:

-My online name is Olive (don't call me anything else.)

-I use any/all pronouns (So like She/Her, Xe/Xem, He/Him, etc etc.)

-I AM A MINOR. (so are most of my oc's. don't be weird with them.)

-I use bases/references a lot in my art (mostly the digital art), so if you see something similar to a base/reference another artist made that is why. (AS FAR AS I CAN TELL EVERY BASE I USE, THE ARTIST MEANT FOR IT TO BE A BASE. IF THATS NOT THE CASE, PLEASE TELL ME.)

-I may have big breaks in between posting, cause school is starting again for me, and also I just have a horrible posting schedule lol

-I came from Pinterest!! I had seen a lot of posts about tumblr on pinterest (its basically my entire feed), so i thought might as well see what its actually like!!

-DONT REPOST MY ART TO OTHER SITES WITHOUT MY PERMISSION.

about my account:

-No inappropriate asks whatsoever.

-I AM (FAIRLY) NEW TO TUMBLR!

-I post randomly on this account! That means you could get oc art one day, then random paragraphs of nonsense the next!

-I will probably only post stuff that I am interested in (check the fandoms list if you want specifics!!)

FANDOMS I AM IN:

(i will get specific if its a game!!)

(a '+' sign at the end means I am more interested in it, a '-' sign at the end means I am less interested in it [fandom-wise]!)

-A Hat in Time +

-Portal +

-Portal 2 +

-Portal Revolution +

-Danganronpa THH, GD, KH +

-The Stanley Parable +

-Minecraft (?) -

-Into/Across the Spiderverse -

-Little Nightmares -

-Little Nightmares 2 -

-The Owl House -

-FNaF -

-MCYT +

-Empires SMP +

-Secret Life +

-Life Series +

-The Backrooms +

-The Good Place +

-Bluey -

-Death Pallete/Matsuro -

-Sky: Children of the Light -

-Dude, Stop +

Borderlands 3 +

-The Last of Us -

-Regretevator +

-The Smiles Family (flamingo) +

-Coraline -

[ETC]

DO NOT INTERACT LIST:

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-Anti-Therians

-Anti-Furries

-Spam Accounts

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-Homophobic People

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PLEASE INTERACT:

(just wanna specify, if you already qualify for anything on the DNI list, this doesn't apply to you.)

-People who don't mind long posts (like this)

-People who are/support furries/therians

-Other queer/LGBTQ+ people <3

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-People who SUPPORT PALESTINE! 🇵🇸

-People who are in the same fandoms as me

-People who will make art of my OC's (PLEASE)

-People who like the same music as me

-People who like fanart

-People who like polar bears

-Other Gacha creators

-and more!

I appreciate those who have read this far, and I just wanna say: Welcome to this account! :D

[kaxen]

Rambling Thoughts on Warframe

Someone I follow posted so much Warframe fanart I just went okay what the hell is this, oh it's free, might as well try it out.

I am fascinated by how the ship in Warframe is just "stick yourself in this person-sized hole"

it twirls around to put the character inside.

Due to some 3rd party controller issues displaying the wrong glyphs, I only remembered how to bop enemies with a stick and electrocute them for like at least an hour (I could have just looked at the controller map, but I found electrocution and bopping them with a stick very satisfying).

I don't think this was the intended loop of this looter shooter for me to bop everything with a stick and/or electrocute everyone

I keep laving a billion pieces of ammo on the floor. I am probably getting the achievement for 100 stealth kills if I keep playing

ironically I did not pick any of the stealth weapons

STICK IS STEALTH IF THERE ARE NO WITNESSES

Not sure how far I can get in this game without making friends

A guy popped into my thing and did not ask much of me, so like if we can just casually vibe, that's fine. I mostly don't want to talk to anyone while trying to do a task.

Like this is why Sky is my fave MMO. Talking is not necessary, we just make aggressive honking and emote spam and call it a day.

For a free to play game I thought they'd give me an uglier starter to try to get me to buy something, but I'm gonna be honest "I think this blue zappy dude is cool" is 75% of my motivation to keep playing lol

Coincidentally, Warframe has a makeship compaign for a plush of my dude

The plush campaign has another 21 days. I will see if I still love Volt in a few weeks xD

I need every game to have Hard Lock like Armored Core 6

After remembering how the crap to shoot, I keep shooting everyone in the leg, minus when I get lucky and just shoot them in the head on accident. The frequency with which is play games that ask me to shoot accurately is very low so I have no braincells for it. "You have mastery in your main weapon" Are you sure Lotus? Are you really sure? My main weapon is not gun. It is stick.

I like the indoor missions. It feels stupid to run 500 meters or so to get to a waypoint on a giant plain.

Also why can't these sci-fi boys swim.

Like I feel like being a biomechanical weapon on a planet that is 70% water should require some mild ability to handle water.

[breoasis]

i've had this picture saved on my phone for quite a while and while yes, it is funny and it is a meme, it is also true like VERY true

i think about it quite often, specially in those times when you want to do or say something and think to yourself "damn if i do it they're gonna think i'm weird" AND WHAT ABOUT IT GIRL, if your friends or even strangers sometimes (like why am i even worrying about what a stranger thinks of me) think you're weird or judge you for the tinniest of things then it's their loss..... For example: i like taking pictures with my phone to buildings or when the sky is pretty or maybe to an ugly graffiti on the wall, whatever, but whenever i do it in my own city i can't stop thinking about how much i look like a tourist right at that moment, but who cares anyway.

be a tourist in your own city, show your friends that minecraft fanart, wear that outfit that you think it's "too much", get that weird hairstyle, don't hide that music playlist, just have fun dude, as long as you're not hurting anybody, let yourself be cringe

[universal-colapse]

silly intro :3

(I know this is a long post but PLEASE READ! I spent a lot of time making this so I would appreciate if you read till the end! 😋)

about me:

-My online name is Olive (don't call me anything else.)

-I use any pronouns (So like She/Her, Xe/Xem, etc.)

-I AM A MINOR. (so are most of my oc's. don't be weird with them.)

-I use bases/references a lot in my art (mostly the digital art), so if you see something similar to a base/reference another artist made that is why.

-I may have big breaks in between posting, cause school is starting again for me, and also I just have a horrible posting schedule

about my account:

-No inappropriate asks whatsoever.

-I AM (FAIRLY) NEW TO TUMBLR!

-I only post art and oc stuff on this account (if you want other stuff, go to my other account)

-I only post stuff that I am interested in (check the fandoms list if you want specifics)

- THIS IS NOT MY MAIN ACCOUNT! this is my art/oc account. My main is @polar-artist :]

FANDOMS I AM IN:

(i will get specific if its a game)

(a '+' sign at the end means I am more interested in it, a '-' sign at the end means I am less interested in it [fandom-wise])

-A Hat in Time +

-Portal +

-Portal 2 +

-Portal Revolution +

-Danganronpa THH, GD, KH

-The Stanley Parable +

-Minecraft (?) -

-Into/Across the Spiderverse -

-Little Nightmares -

-Little Nightmares 2 -

-The Owl House -

-FNaF -

-MCYT +

-Empires SMP +

-Secret Life +

-Life Series +

-The Backrooms +

-The Good Place +

-Bluey -

-Death Pallete/Matsuro -

-Sky: Children of the Light -

-Dude, Stop +

- Borderlands 3 +

-The Last of Us -

-Regretevator +

-The Smiles Family (flamingo) +

-Coraline -

DO NOT INTERACT LIST:

(orange means thin ice, red means DNI under ANY circumstance)

-Anti-Therians

-Anti-Furries

-Spam Accounts

-NSFW accounts (interact with a different account if you must interact)

-p0/rn Accounts (IM A MINOR.)

-Pedos

-People who support I$r@3l

-Homophobic People

-Transphobic People

-L0l1c0n/Sh0t@c0n

-Proshippers

-Racists

-Ableists

-maybe more? Idk

PLEASE INTERACT:

(just wanna specify, if you already qualify for anything on the DNI list, this doesn't apply to you.)

-People who don't mind long posts (like this)

-People who are/support furries/therians

-People who are in the same fandoms as me

-People who like fanart

-People who like polar bears

-People who like the same music as me

-People who like OC art

-People who will make art of my OC's (PLEASE)

-People who SUPPORT PALESTINE 🇵🇸

-Other queer/LGBTQ+ people <3

-and more!

I appreciate those who have reas this far, and I just wanna say: Welcome to this account! :D

[kingocringeracc]

Howdy. I'm racc, I'm posting this one for new people coming in from @fuzybby so yall don't just come in to trent reznor with a Dino, and game of thrones fanart. Anyway, this is all heavily inspired by max brooks and his world war z novel.

Thanks for reading, see ya.

Jacob Sterling.

Synopsis, uhhhh, an interview.

November 25, 2023

Yonkers, New York

After a pleasant dinner with the Sterling family, I’m met by the father of the home, Jacob Sterling, and Sean Gray, the men I would be interviewing, even though Jacob would be speaking for most of the interview.

“So, Jacob, you were put in prison when the US government fled past the Rockies correct?”

“I was, this was back before they had found out a way to keep criminals from being criminals, public shaming, you know, the signs they'd put around people's necks saying what they did?”

“But I was caught trying to steal from my neighbor, and I was put in a jail cell with a man we all called Bubba.”

“Now, I'm a pretty tall dude, I'm 6’0, but Bubba? Jesus Christ, he was tall, I think one of the guards measured him to be about 6’8? 6’7?”

“But anyway, Bubba was tall, but he was cornfed too, straight off a ranch in Amarillo. I'm sure if he wanted to, and with a good right hook, a Zeds head would explode, he might not have been Iron Mike, but he hit hard.”

“I dont know why Bubba got put in there, but I dont think he did anything, he was a kind, Bubbae person, that always gave people more chances than he should've, and was more than happy to help if you needed it.”

“now on to the actual substance of my experience in the war. One day, me and bubba were in the cell, doing whatever the hell we did to pass the time. When a few officers came in and asked us to put a bag over our heads, or they'd do it themselves, me and bubba where smart enough to go along with what the hell was going on, even though we had zero clue if we were about the be put to death or not. And we were put in some type of vehicle, and driven out to some air force base I can't remember the name of.”

Jacob pinches the bridge of his nose, seemingly trying to remember some of the details.

“We met this agent of some sort, I dont remember if he told us his name or not, but he told us we were to be trained on how to jump from a plane and survive. Me and Bubba dont know why, but we figure it's better than being in a cell.”

“So for the next three weeks, we take a basic airborne course, learning how to be a paratrooper, all the while we haven't been filled in on why we’re being given this course, all we know is that we’re doing it, when finally, were put into a big ol plane going across the continent, only landing once in the gulf of Mexico, where there was the USS teddy roosevelt, where we refueled, and on our flight, we where finally told our destination, and why we where trained.”

Jacob then decides to do an impression of the officer, which gets a laugh out of both me and sean.

“you have been chosen to be put in the city of yonkers to find and kill, any, and every, single zombie that you can get you hands-on, this will help the united states, eventually, retake the east coast. If you can even kill 5 of those things, it will help us.”

After his joke, he continues his story.

“We’re given a pack, we open it up, find a week of food, water, a cyanide pill, a knife, and a journal. And told to get ready to drop”

“The freefall was something I'd like to experience again, it was like floating at a point. But as were falling we spotted a few stores that would be essential for our survival, and a house, but I saw a construction site, so I decided to land there. I land at the site, I dont see any zeds, so I see Bubba’s parachute landing just a few across from me, and he comes over to me, and asks what to do next.”

“We decide to go to the house that we spotted in the sky, Bubba literally says, “This knife is too small”, manages to find a sledgehammer, and decides, yeah! That'll be my weapon!”

“Yonkers was surprisingly not full of zeds when we dropped, but there were still a few wanderers, and I got to witness the strength of a 300-pound titan of a man, with the extension of a metal hammerhead. More than enough zeds were on the floor, and this is with Bubba using the sledgehammer as a one-handed weapon, not as a two-handed weapon, which is how normal people would use it.”

“We find the house, figure out it's a two-story, and decide to scout it out, Bubba finds one of those “in a fire, rescue the animals! Sign” with the only name “ruby” on it, and we enter through the door after I manage to pick the lock. We find signs of a very clear animal lover, there are animal signs all over the place, and pictures of a man with a dog, who must've been ruby. The dude in the picture had one of the best-grown beards in the world, pure black hair, and the most charming smile I've ever seen. Ruby seemed to have the same coat of hair as him, except curly, he must've been some kind of poodle mix from what we saw. And had an even better smile.”

“I’m pretty sure that was the first time I saw Bubba cry, looking at that picture. But we continue to investigate the house, making sure the locks work, checking windows, and looking for any type of non-perishable food. We find a few cans, but we find an entire stockpile of dog food in the backyard shed. We decide that enough searching around for the night, and we’ll look at gas stations, look for more supplies, come the next day.”

“We actually got a good night's sleep, after blocking off the stairwell, and getting our separate rooms with good beds. It's actually a little strange how many rooms there were being that the only evidence of the house owner was the dude with the great beard and his dog. But come next morning, we stop by a gas station, get all the canned foods, bring them back to the house, drop them off, then go to a grocery store, all the while clearing out the zeds we see, we get more canned food, and for whatever reason bubba decided to get some canned dog food.”

“we go back to the house, drop off the food, then I see one of the best cars I've ever seen, which I'm sure you saw in the garage.”

Jacob winks at me, and its true, its a very impressive car, a 1969 Camaro, kept in almost perfect condition.

“and wanna know what's even better? It wasn't locked, and the keys were in the glove box, whoever decided to leave that girl behind clearly didn't want to take care of it, so, that made me the owner, and the caretaker of it. Bubba didn't really get it, his thing was music and collecting CDs, and records. We decided to go to the fire station, maybe they'd have some clothes we could wear, that'd be thicker, be better than what we had if we got into close quarters with the Zeds, Bubba thought it was a good idea, so we get in the Camaro, which had gas, luckily, and drive on down to the fire station.”

“bubba asked to me to go to a music store soon because there weren't any CDs in the glove box, nor was there a CD book. I agree, music is good, but I think Bubba would have badgered me and gone on a rant about how music was the greatest thing to ever happen, and how music was the very essence of humanity. I came to find out that he was right”

“We arrive at the fire station and sneak in, I tell Bubba that it is probably not a good idea to bring the sledgehammer, but he ignored me, didnt wanna use a knife, “too fragile, too small”, he would say. So we get into the station, and go to the locker rooms, maybe they'd have uniforms there. Turns out they did, and apparently there was one of Bubba’s cousins in Yonkers before the war because they had one that fit him, I also found a crowbar, a useful tool, for literally everything. We decide that we've done enough for today, and go home”

“The next months went without a hitch, doing more cleanouts, and getting Bubba his music, going further and further away from our base each time. But one day we come home to something rummaging around in our backyard, we see this black dog, with curls, it must have been ruby, I grab a rifle we had found a month back, but Bubba screams at me to “Put that damn thing down!” it was the first time I heard bubba shout like I said, gentle giant. But he goes into the house, all the while Ruby is growling and barking at me, when Bubba comes out from behind me with the canned dog food, and opens it.”

“To my absolute bewilderment, Bubba puts the food down in front of ruby, and it begins to eat, bubba circles it, trying to examine it, and he comes back to me and says “it's starving to death, and its almost winter, let it come inside, we have power, and firewood to keep the house warm. Ill be damned if I let it die out here when we have the power to help.” so, I couldn't really say no, especially when I thought the same, so I leave the door open, and that's how ruby started hanging out with us, and became our best friend.”

“Fast forward a few years, we've got a routine nailed down, the town is all secure, when we decide to go into a more densely populated area, and we find this fellow over here, who managed to survive out all on his own, because his parents where survivalist, and decided not to go with the government because they thought the government where all nazi’s.”

Jacob points to Sean, where Sean gives a small smile and a wave, before adding to Jacob's story.

“I had been living by myself for the past 4 years, my parents died after the first week of us coming out and investigating, but I remained for the next 4 years, and had essentially lost the will to live, so, out of sheer recklessness, I went out on a limb and decided, id much rather die by someone else's hand, than my own, or succumb to the dead. And I ended up meeting Bubba, Ruby, and Jacob.”

Sean gestures to Jacob to continue his story, Jacob does, but busts out a bottle of alcohol, he hands it to Sean, and Sean seemingly understands and leaves the room and returns with glasses, he pours one for all of us, and I sip at mine, while they both slam theirs back.

“Another 3 years pass, and we'd been out here for about 7 years at this point when one day I see Bubba looking at Ruby with a sad look in his eye. He looks at me and tells me to get Sean, he sits us all down and tells us that Ruby isn't getting any older, and she's gonna start to hurt a lot, and we gotta think ahead. Sean isn't having it, to be fair, neither am I, but Bubba had every single reason to be right, every single living thing died someday, despite what was going on in the world at that time. So Bubba goes to the veterinarian's office, turns out he was a veterinarian in Amarillo besides his farm work, he knew how to take care of animals, and he knew how to do it properly, that must have been why he was such an animal whisperer, he befriended a murder of crows during those years as well, every few weeks or so they come back, none of them are the original crow's bubba fed and befriended, but crows are smart critters, and they can pass down which humans are friendly or not. But where was I? Ah, right, Bubba going to the veterinarian's office. He makes sure he has the stuff to make a chemical called pentobarbital, it's the stuff they use to put down your dog, he explained it all to use both, it was a seizure medicine, that caused the animal to go unconscious, and it would stop brain function, and it would stop the heart, within 2 minutes.”

Sean is starting to cry silently on my right, his hands formed into a fist pressed against his mouth. Jacob pours another drink, and slams it back, pouring another for sean.

“when the day finally came, bubba was ready, he had ruby in the car within seconds, and we where at the veterinarian's office within 2 minutes, speed limit didn't matter, i found the whole speedometer, and this was time to use the whole speedometer. Bubba made a batch of the chemical we needed a few days before, some kind of sixth sense he had. But he inserted the IV into Ruby’s leg, and we all hugged parts of her, bubba looked her in the eyes as she closed them. He said it was what he did with all the farm animals he had to put down. It was his code of honor or something like that, I never saw him kill a human, and he never really looked the Zeds in the eye.”

Jacob sips at his glass and takes a shaky breath.

“We buried her in the backyard”

“That wasn't the worst to happen though.”

“A few months later, some freak storm came in, and Bubba went outside to make sure the generator was working when we heard his scream, a zed had snuck up behind him in the storm and must brought about 400 of his buddies with him, I see him stomping the skull of the zed in, I see the bite on his leg, I see the group of zeds behind the fence, bubba runs inside, he gets a first aid kit. Calmly wrapped the wound around his leg, got dressed in his firefighter uniform, and gave me his journal, and I will never forget the words he told me, he said to me and sean after Sean came out of his trance that he was in because of the bite. “If I pass out, have the strength to end me, you have been the greatest blessing to me, the both of you, but ill fend all of them off, it will be the last thing I do, and I will then go rest with ruby.” so, as the storm raged on, it must've been right on top of us, the thunder and lightning were going a mile a minute, but as I watched bubba smash the skull of every single zed out there, with the exact same sledgehammer that he picked up the first day we got to yonkers. I think every single strike from his hammer was somehow perfectly synchronized with the thunderstrikes. And when the rain cleared, Bubba was the only living being that remained. And we were just now coming down with a fever. He used to joke about how he drank from a lake where there were tons of brain-eating amoebas, and he starved the thing to death. I'm half convinced he was right now, because was still standing when normal people would have already slipped into a coma, he had been fighting for at least 7 or so hours. He looks at me and hands me his hammer, tells me it's time, and so I go and get a towel lay it underneath his head, and wind up the hammer, and in a single stroke, I smash his brain in one blow, merciful and quick. I wrap the towel around his head and cradle his head in my arms, Sean joins me. Me and Sean had a silent ride to the casket store, if that's what you'd call it, and hauled it back to the house.”

“It takes me about 5 hours to dig his grave, Sean puts his body in the casket, and makes a wooden grave.”

we manage to not drop his grave, and we bury him.”

“Another year passes, and the army finally arrives, a year too late. But they arrive nonetheless, I meet the missus from the army, we settle down, and start this little family. 2 years later, the final zed in China gets crushed under my heel.”

Jacob and Sean get up and ask if I want to pay my respects, I follow them, and put a guitar pick on a grave.

It reads.

Here lies Bubba

Dearest friend

The man who made me realize music was the soul of humanity.

The second grave reads

Ruby

[snurtles-iteration-snlogsnentral]

MY TIME HAS COME.

12 year old snackugaki would have given TNM an A, no question. It was right up there with Power Rangers (going through the In Space series at the time in 1997 which is the series it crossed over with, I trailed off PR around Lightspeed Rescue.)

Like at the time, ninja craze aside, a lot of children's programming had martial arts and (child) martial artists casted in shows. tl;dr I was a fighty, bitey little thing and while my father would have preferred I study wing chun which... at the time I wondered why I didn't and ended up studying aikido (It was convenience, a school club opened up because a teacher was offering TKD, Aikido and Tang Soo Do and just straight up no wing chun teachers were in the neighborhood). Suffice to say, Trini Kwan and Mei Pieh Chi chilled me the fuck out by being their level-headed selves. Lead by example at its prime.

Granted I was starting to skew on the older side of the target demographic when TNM was airing but, y'know, I love my funky li'l green dudes. And considering the tone set by the 87 cartoon (barring the red sky episodes) and the veering away from the Mirage tone in the subsequent 90s movies, TNM being as goofy as it was is simply following Turtlemania to its logical conclusion (to me, looking back as an adult; preteen me was just enjoying that squeaky chicken punching sound effect)

But 12 yo snack isn't taking this poll, 39 yo snack is, so.

I would give it a very loving C. C+ if there was an option. The Chiodo brothers did an okay job making the suits, the plastons were interesting minus Venus' sculpted little A-cups. For the time, the facial animatronics were pretty good, baby snack didn't see any difference between how TNM's faces moved than the movies. Though there are shots where eyes aren't lining up and knowing the people in the suits barely had any field of vision to work with which resulted in mishaps like

Good thing they weren't related. Which.... I waffled on whether to bring this up because I could very well write a whole goddamn thesis on this point alone but.

Yes, I know one of the big wanks over TNM was not just Venus being a fifth turtle, that Laird was adamantly and vehemently against, it was that she was explicitly stated in-show to not be related to any of the others (and also that none of the four were brothers by blood either). That it was lame she was "reduced" to a love interest. Which for that tidbit alone? Barely fuck all was paid to that point. If I had to recount it on the spot because I have and do rewatch TNM?

You had...

Leo holding Venus in a classically tender pose after she called upon Shredder's inner child self to call him cringe and one shot him in the scene

A moment where Leo slung his arm over the couch while Venus sat beside him

Leo professing wanting to learn her prism illusion techniqu/chi manipulation

Raphael being Fig 1 Exhibit A tsundere tsupreme in behaving coldly to her, calling her she-demon, jabbing at her "shinobi" training.

Raphael basically drawing fanart of himself riding a bike with Venus backpacking.

Raphael being overprotective to the point of boorishness when Venus tries to befriend a defecting dragon soldier. "DoN't wALk aWaY whEn i'M taLKinG tO yOu!" Yuck.

Mikey pulling his "I work out every day!" shtick, calling her bodacious, making a silly little song about finding her cute, all of which happens in Venus' intro episodes

Mikey and Venus play-waltzing as they fight Dragonlord's henchmen.

Donatello, and Venus, sniping at one another's field of expertise. Was barely sniping tbh because "Magic Girl" is barely insulting, it was just a fact. The second actual snipe was on her status as a fledgling "shinobi" trying to defeat a 2,000 year old vampire with special scrolls she couldn't decipher.

And depending on your stance on enemies-to-lovers, the one actual fight Donnie and Venus had because... he was playing his music too loud while she was trying to meditate.

Like for all the griping about her being "just" a love interest there was effectively fuck all in evidence for it. Those listed above are moments you could attempt to make the argument from. But only those. She fought with them the same, goofed up the same, got into shenanigans the same. She was out here with her little braid, minding her business and being a fifth turtle.

...Lemme move on because this IS becoming longer than I intended but to reiterate: Venus wasn't related to the boys in TNM, isn't related to the boys in IDW. Now she can be related to them in any of y'all's little headcanons. It doesn't have to be and frankly isn't a big deal, work out your own issues before making it everyone else's.

The characterization was sort of shallow sure, barring a few of the hallmark traits showing up during downtime for the turtles in-show. For that I'm attributing it to the Monster of the Day format they had for most of the episodes on top of there only being one season. There were only a few little threads that could've found fruit had there been a second season like originally planned. Leo and his finding a New Way to live as ninja, Shredder escaping with the golden shuriken, the Good Dragon who's still out there albeit back in the mirror trapped with the other, apparently good, dragons. Donnie having been brainwashed. Quease doing anything really.

I loved the things they tried, a whole new roster of antagonists minus the staple like Shredder. Starting the show with them being on the cusp of adulthood. Splinter having a life outside his sons and a cute friendship with a guy he plays chess in the park with. That Venus was from a different discipline than ninjutsu, and the entire worldbuilding that implies.

Sure childhood nostalgia is doing a loooot of heavy lifting in my positive attitude about the show but liiiiike everyone knows the show wasn't great, from a variety of points. It's as close to objectively bad as you can get for a show.

So like, and? Nothin'.

Like panning for pretty rocks, not necessarily gold with this show. I fucks with Next Mutation, and Venus is a bonus.

Acknowledging the fact that quality waxes and wanes, and even if you only watched the series partway through…

[donkey-hyuck]

¡MASTERLIST!

WORD COUNT - 16,793

GENRE - angst! angst! angst! | university!au | breakup!au

CHARACTERS/PAIRING - frat boy!mark lee x fem!reader | dreamies + jaehyun and Johnny

INTRODUCTION - in which these sorrowful feelings hit you both harder than you had initially thought.

WARNINGS- lots of curse words | alcohol consumption/mentions of puke | mentions of cheating | marks a pussy (the phrase is used like.. a lot) | that being said, a lot of over-usage of words/phrases | kinda toxic relationship??

TAGLIST - @moonsclover​ @keemburley​ @bitchenderyy​ @girlwithimaginarybiaslist​ @jaebyul1​ @neoneoneoneooo​ @ashkuuuu​

@woofie-nctzen-fanarts​ @straytannies @yut-ta @sunshinedhyuck​ @injunified​

@multistan30​ @marklee-wife-renjun-whore​ @queenrachelpink​ @ncteaxhoe​ @rynshyuckies​

A/N - bc ftr is on pause until further notice and since mark is one of my favorite members to write angsty shit for. based on “rockland” by gracie abrams— this entire album is god tier.

*update, please click the ‘master list’ link to shatter your heart some more :’)*

You thought the break would heal you, truly, you did. And to be fully honest, the healing stage was a bit better right after the huge break up. But after a while did you realize that breaking up— forever— with the one and only Mark Lee may have been one of the stupidest decisions you had ever made in your life.

And after a while, did Mark realize he’s made the stupidest decision in his life if it meant it didn’t include you.

But life was harsh on the both of you.

—

“Why are you saying this all of a sudden?” The crack in his voice makes your conscience scream at you on the inside. How could you do this to him? But the bitterness of the cold weather and the bitterness in your heart was all you could feel. It was all you could hear.

“Mark, I know what you and Miyoung have. And I’m okay with it… But I’m going to end it now so that I don’t end up getting hurt in the end. I just want you to know that I will always be here for you, just like we promised the day we met.” Were you being selfish? Yes, yes you were. But every word that came out of your mouth was nothing but the truth. Miyoung and Mark had been flinging with each other these past couple of weeks and maybe you would have believed him later if they weren’t so shameless about it. You couldn’t blame him though, Miyoung was everything he wanted— she was everything every guy and girl wanted but regardless, she chose Mark. He must’ve felt like some lucky dude, huh.

“I don’t get it. What are you saying?” He pleaded, desperate tears rimming his eyes as he looked at you with… you don’t even know what.

You sighed loudly, not letting him see the vulnerability that lied within the tone of your voice as well as your actions. So, you relied on the next emotions that flew by you. Anger. Frustration. Disappointment.

“I’m saying that I saw you kiss Miyoung on the fucking cheek!” You huffed out, “It may not have meant anything to you, and I know the two of you have been friends or whatever but, Mark, that shit hurts, you know?” The tears have surpassed the sockets of your eyes as they rest on your cheek and slide their way down to your chin and neck. The both of you look like an absolute mess.

Contrary to the heavenly pink and orange tint from the sky of the sunset, three figures stood in the cold as the wind picked up its speed. The two figures were you and Mark, tense bodies standing across from each other with salty tears covering your face. And the third figure was none other than Jeong Miyoung herself. Miss homewrecker, if you will.

Intently, she watched the whole conversation go down. She was at Mark’s apartment when you called to meet. Though it wasn’t her intention to break the two of you up, there was a bit of a spark that ignited in her heart now that Mark was a widowed man.

Slowly, Mark looked in her direction, unaware that she had followed him. His eyes widened for a moment and widened even larger when you started to turn your head in the same direction. Frantically, the only thing he was able to come up with to prevent you from seeing her was grabbing your head and pulling you in for a kiss. A fucking kiss. He was out of his goddamn mind.

Miyoung’s face was flushed in embarrassment as she watched him kiss you, but you fought back against him.

“Are you out of your fucking mind?!” You shouted and continued to look in the direction he was looking in prior to that meaningless kiss.

Seeing Miyoung staring at you, or more so Mark, you scoffed and pushed his hands off of you and took a step back. The tears started to swell once again as you gave her a small, bittersweet, smile before looking back at the man who just broke your heart into more than a million pieces.

“It hurts to see the one you love move on to another person. It hurts to see that the only person that’s always been there for me, is now there for someone else.” Mark’s heart dropped to his stomach as he listened to those words come out of you. How long has he been doing this to you? How could he be such an idiot? God, he wanted to throw himself away and never come back.

Fresh tears escape his eyes as you sadly smile at him and wipe them from falling down his face.

“But I will always be here for you. No matter how much you dislike me, I will always wipe your tears, and I will always keep you safe.” You paused for a moment and looked at his face through your blurry vision. Your hand still rested on his cheek but as you turned to put it down and walk back to your apartment, he held your wrist to refrain you from leaving. Almost like he was scared you were going to disappear forever, he needed to feel your warmth on his face for one last time before letting you go.

And it hurt you to see him not fighting back, but you knew Mark at this point. If he wasn’t going to fight, maybe it meant that he already gave up.

Though you refused to believe that Mark gave up on you, maybe it was the devastating reality. Maybe life wasn’t all peaches and cream. And maybe, just maybe, did he not love you the same way you did anymore. But you did not want to think about that. Mark has been a part of your life for so long, that universe just doesn’t seem real. None of it did.

☹ ☹ ☹

Hey, I feel like I might say the wrong thing

It hasn’t even been a year yet. To be specific, it’s only been eight months. Eight long months of lonely nights and empty thoughts. At first, you thought breaking up with Mark was the best thing that had happened to you, but after a while of suffering with yourself, you felt alone. More alone than ever. And maybe it was just your conscience that told yourself that you needed Mark back, but you needed help. You needed to get out of your comfort zone and relax.

This was a complete mistake. You did not need to get out of your comfort zone and relax. All you wanted to do now was go home, cry, eat ice cream, and binge watch all your comfort movies. Stupid Chae, left you here at the fraternity house all by yourself. It was all too overwhelming and got even more overwhelming when you caught sight of Mark Lee. Jeong Miyoung was by his side, greeting all the guests until her eyes laid on you. She sweetly smiled and grabbed Mark’s attention to point at you. His eyes widened just like the day of the breakup.

Slowly, the couple walked towards your direction to greet you.

You and Mark were both breathing shallow breaths as each step brought you closer to each other. You felt like you were going to throw up, and you were completely sober. The red plastic cup in your hand was only a distraction to make sure no one would give you any drinks that could be roofied.

As the two stood in front of you, the dryness in your mouth was unbearable and you took a sip of the water that was in the cup. You were too afraid to say anything. So was Mark.

“Hey, Y/n! I’m glad you could make it!” Miyoung coughed as she noticed the tension between the two of you. Slowly looking at her, you smiled— maybe a little too much and maybe a little too fake— and replied, “I’m glad to be here.” Those were the first words Mark has ever heard you say after the huge break. And by huge, you really mean huge. Everyone on campus knew you were together, and everyone on campus knew you broke up. The news spread like wildfire but you did not know why. It was just like any other relationship.

“uh, have any of you seen Chae, by any chance? I’ve been trying to look for her for the past ten minutes,” you continued, only looking at Miyoung. You were too afraid to look at Mark, scared of what might come out of your, sober, mouth. Scared of saying something wrong and causing a scene.

“She was with me. Sorry, Y/n,” says Jeong Jaehyun holding Chae by her waist. Jeong Jaehyun was Jeong Miyoung’s older brother, Mark’s best friend, and Chae’s…. side piece? You didn’t quite know the relationship between Jaehyun and Chae but whatever it was you weren’t going to fight her about it— that already happened and she stopped talking to you for two weeks.

You knew Jaehyun quite well, along with Johnny Seo who does not seem to be present at this moment. The two of them were seniors at your university and two of Mark’s bestest friends, as well as a group of people called the ‘dreamies.’ That included; Huang Renjun, Lee Jeno, Lee Donghyuck (a.k.a. Haechan), Na Jaemin, Zhong Chenle, and Park Jisung. It was quite the friend group.

“No it’s fine, I was just ready to leave and wanted to ask Chae if she was ready or not,” you gave your friend an ‘I will kill you when you get home’ look and focused your attention to her, as well as everyone else. You hoped she was ready to go home and eat takeout.

“I want to stay here a bit longer. Just take my keys and drive home. Jaehyun can drop me off later,” she gave you a devilish smile along with the devilish response. She was also hinting at Mark Lee. You were definitely going to kill her when she decides to come home.

But all of a sudden, Mark intervened into the conversation, “I can take you home, Y/n.” The air between the four of you was now thick.

“That sounds amazing, Mark! I owe you one!” exclaimed Chae as she pushed him toward you. Wow, she was really going to get it when she’s blackout drunk.

Miyoung gave Mark and you a look as he was fishing out his keys out of his pocket.

“No, it’s.. it’s fine. I can just wait until Chae’s ready to go home,” you tried to excuse. Jaehyun laughed and joked, “Why? Do you not trust me, Y/n?” These motherfuckers.

“Of course I trust you! Why wouldn’t I? I’m fine with staying here until she’s ready to leave.” Jaehyun and Mark snorted to themselves as Mark left to get his keys which were in his room rather than in his pocket.

“Y/n!!” shouted Johnny from across the room. His face was flushed and he seemed more outgoing than usual, he was definitely drunk. He gave you a sloppy hug and pulled you to his side.

“Where have you been, girl? I missed you. After you and Mark-” He was interrupted by Jaehyun who punched him in the stomach and apologized on his friend's behalf.

“He did not mean to say that last sentence. Johnny just missed seeing you around. You don’t come out anymore.” Not that Jaehyun’s response was any better, but you were appreciative he understood your feelings.

“Sorry about that. My boss wants me to put in more hours a week and uni’s been kicking my ass, that’s all. My boss is a dick and chemistry is confusing,” you joked just as Mark approached the little group.

“Mark! Your girl’s-” This time, Jaehyun kicked his leg and pushed him away. Miyoung stood there, uncomfortable and not muttering a single word, half embarrassed and half amused about the conversation.

“If you’re ready to go, we can go,” he softly said. Miyoung looked at you with the slightest tinge of jealousy, Chae looked at you with happiness, Jaehyun looked at you waiting to make a decision, and Johnny was looking at you with a hazy smile. You really did not want to stay here anymore.

“uh, we can go. I guess.” Mark chuckled and repeated, “I guess?” You hated him.

“I’m ready to go.”

And with that, everyone was bidding you a goodbye. You hugged Jaehyun and thanked him for not saying anything and hugged Chae. “You are not coming home tonight. You are the absolute devil and I am going to kill you before you have the chance,” you whispered. She just giggled and winked at you, “I love you too.”

Johnny gave you the biggest bear hug and wished you a goodbye, slurred words and all. And Jeong Miyoung just stood there, unwanting of your hug, or any physical touch from you, for that matter.

“It was nice to see you, Miyoung.” She slightly rolled her eyes but was met with her older brother’s mean stare. “It was nice to see you too, Y/n. I hope you can make it next time.” Monotone. Her voice was entirely one tone, like she was bored. But she got eye scolded again by her brother.

As you and Mark walked out the door and to his car, the silence was unbeatable. For a moment you contemplated sitting in the passenger side or the back, but the mature thing to do was to go with the flow and not make a fuss, even if the fuss was inside your head. When you shut the door to the passenger side, it took Mark a moment to start up his car.

“Do you still live in the East Side apartment complex?” His voice was still soft as ever. But you shook your head and slowly responded, “I don’t. Chae and I moved out three months ago. We live in a small house on Dove Avenue. When you get to the street I’ll just tell you which house it is.”

To be honest, Mark’s driving was not the best, but he knew that it was just because of you. Not in a bad way but he was nervous being so close to you in the comfort of his own car. But Dove Avenue was just a few streets away from the frat house and so he did not have to worry for long.

The ride was barely ten minutes.

“It’s the dark blue one with the Christmas lights outside.” Mark pulled over and stopped in front of your house. It was really cute, and really…. you. And a bit of Chae. The thought made him slightly smile to himself. You were still the same person you were eight months ago, and he couldn’t have loved you more because of that.

He looked to the road ahead as you sat in the passenger side not admitting to yourself that you didn’t want to leave. For a dull moment, you reminisce about the past you and Mark had. But the past was past for a reason and there was no better time than right now…. Okay, there probably was a better time than right now, at this moment, but there was no other way to describe it.

“Do you, maybe, wanna come inside?” What a way to fuck it up, Y/n. By now, you were banging your fist against your head a trillion times.

“Oh, uh, sure, I would like to,” he responded back. Whew. You could not imagine the amount of humiliation that would reside in you if he were to decline that offer. But maybe in all, you should not have offered. You knew you were going to say the wrong thing at such a wrong time like this.

Fumbling with your keys, you managed to open the door and let him in. As you were shutting the door slowly, Mark turned his head to observe what made this little home, your little home. And he was met with the smell of you he, oh so, loved.

“Welcome to my humble abode,” You awkwardly chuckled and rubbed your sweaty palms against your pants. “Well, mine and Chae’s but she has zero architectural skills.”

Mark laughed and turned back to you, “It’s really nice in here, Y/n. It reminds me a lot of you,” He fucked that up real quick. But he quickly added, “and a bit of Chae.”

You laughed at his statement and he was glad you didn’t notice the pain in his voice as he said those words. This could have been his home too, or maybe his second home. But now it was more of a place that brings him comfort, even if this was his first time coming over. Hell, he didn’t even know you and Chae moved out.

The uncomfortable stare between the two of you was interrupted by the ring from his phone. He had gotten a text message from Miyoung herself.

‘When are you coming back?’

It had only been not even twenty minutes of him gone and there she was, ready to blow up his phone. They weren’t even together, for crying out loud. God, he wished she would just disappear for a while. She was so overbearingly clingy and it made him go absolutely out of his mind. But she was his best friend's sister and he knew he would get his ass beat by Jaehyun if he ever broke her heart.

Peering over his phone you can barely see the text message but you could take a wild guess that it was the pretty sorority girl, Jeong Miyoung.

Mark shut off his phone after reading the message and looked back at you as your eyes lingered on his phone for another millisecond before looking at him. He smiled and rubbed the back of his neck with his right hand, “I guess that’s my queue to leave.” You nodded and led him toward the door.

“Sorry, I didn’t offer you anything. We never had the time anyway,” you tried to joke which resulted in him fake laughing and rubbing the back of his neck again.

“It’s alright. They might be wondering where I am.” There was a brief pause between the two of you before you muttered a quick and quiet, ‘bye.’ However before you could fully shut the door, Mark spoke out. “Wait!”

Hesitantly, you opened the door again and stared at him, waiting for whatever he was going to say. The shine was lost in his eyes as he looked almost lost, in a way.

But you were beyond tired now. The social part of you was long gone and you did not want to see Mark anymore. There was a reason why you avoided him when on campus. You two had practically the same class schedules (not the same classes, thank God. If you did, you wouldn’t know how to survive.) The silence passed for a moment before you got tired of waiting.

“What do you want, Mark?” You wanted to cuss him out so bad. He just sighed and uttered a ‘never mind’ as well as an apology. He turned to walk back to his car as his head was down, looking at his feet. And you were watching him the entire time.

What would you have said if you took a shot? What if you were drunk? What if he were drunk? All the outcomes of which you did not want to think about. As he got into the car, the front door of your house was still open as you stood behind it. When he sat on the driver's side, he looked up and gave you a little wave. You pretended not to see it and continued to close the door.

Admittedly, it still hurt to see him doing absolutely fine without you. And it hurt to see him with Miyoung by his side.

But what you didn’t know was that Mark was suffering just as much as you, probably even more. No, he was definitely suffering more than you have. Mark has seen your Instagram posts and story updates, there was no way you were hurting as much as he was. You were the first one to break it off in the first place, it was him who was a fool.

You seemed fine at the party, even if he caught on that you didn’t even want to look at him, you hid it well and you looked fine. You look beautiful. He just wished it was you who was by his side and not Miyoung. He was getting sick of her, and he has been for the past seven months.

☹ ☹ ☹

I hung up when I started calling

You probably would've laughed then

If you had seen it happen

Mark had some time to think about himself. And to think about you, to be honest. Ever since he dropped you off at your house during the party, you have been on his mind 25/8, maybe even more than that. He just wanted to hold you and be close to you again. The thoughts that had been running through his mind had now affected his real life.

“Yo, Mark. Did you hear what I asked?” Said Johnny who held a fork in his right hand while waving his left hand in front of the younger man’s face. Lee Jeno, who was sitting next to Mark, slightly nudged him but the shoulder which made him knock out of his head.

“What’s wrong with you all of a sudden?” Asked Huang Renjun whilst he was munching on some chips.

“Yeah, why do you keep spacing out bro?” Added Donghyuck, who was mischievously looking at Mark and looking around the cafeteria for Jaehyun and his sister.

“Nothing. My stats professor just assigned some work and I was trying to think back to what it was, that’s all,” he tried to excuse himself and though his friends didn’t budge at the moment, they knew that Mark was lying to cover up his true feelings, whatever they were.

Just as he finished talking, he managed to get a glimpse of you, Chae, and Jaemin walking into the cafeteria and getting into one of the lunch lines. He looked back only to see Jaemin saying what looked like a goodbye to you and Chae as he started to walk toward the table which included Johnny, Donghyuck, Jeno, Renjun, and now the siblings.

Miyoung had ushered Jeno aside so she could take her place next to Mark at the circle table as Jaehyun sat next to Johnny and soon after came Jaemin who sat next to Renjun. It was a pretty packed table near the exit of the cafeteria while there was an empty table of which you and Chae sat at not far from the friend group. Just his luck.

It didn’t seem to Mark that you had seen him, which he was lucky enough you didn’t, but he knew his heart was picking up his pace just by seeing you. Every so often, he would distance himself from the conversation just to look at you. Gladly he did, because every time he looked over, he always saw you laughing with Chae or showing a video to her from your phone. It made him realize— made him realize even more— that he just missed you. It was as plain and simple as that but he would never stop saying and thinking that. It was the truth and Mark needed you to realize that he wanted you back. He was just too much of a pussy to admit it, even to himself sometimes.

For a second, Chae looked around the cafeteria to meet eyes with Mark. She smirked to herself and recaught your attention to her while motioning toward Mark with her head. Rolling your eyes, you turned your head around and immediately saw what Chae was annoyingly pointing her head at.

To be honest, at first, you thought she was talking about Jaehyun but not even five feet across from her boo was your ex-lover, Mark Lee. He was staring at the table you and Chae were sitting at. Stupidly, you turned your head to your right only to be met with the wall. You dumb fuck, why would he be looking at the wall? It was a nice color. And had a nice texture.

Giggling to herself as she watched you turn your head to the wall and spend a few moments fighting with yourself in your brain, she grabbed your attention once more and waved at Mark. And Jaehyun. Ugh.

Jaehyun immediately smiled and waved back to Chae whilst Mark sat there with widened eyes and a pink face. He was embarrassed to be caught staring at your table and just as he was about to turn his head away and act like he was not looking at the table (more specifically, you), Miyoung turned her head around with her brother and saw you and Chae. Exaggeratingly, she waved back to Chae and got up from her seat next to Mark to sit at the four seater table that the both of you sat at.

Unfortunately, she had chosen to sit right across from you, although you wouldn’t know how to feel if she sat next to you. She called someone over and all of a sudden you felt a familiar presence next to you.

“So, Chae, how’s it going? Are you going to the party this weekend?” Chae disliked Miyoung as much as you did— even if you didn’t want to admit that you didn’t like her. Chae just knows you do. Maybe she even disliked her more than you. But Chae always puts on a fake facade so as to not cause much drama. High school was in the past, after all.

Your friend smiled at the girl and nodded, “Of course I am! Jaehyun’s gonna be picking me up. I’ll be there, seven sharp.” Miyoung excitedly complied and turned her head to you, but in an almost slower manner. As if she didn’t want to speak to you. But Mark was there, and she didn’t want him to see her at her worst— being a bitch.

“Are you going to the party, Y/n?” She enunciated the ‘you’ and glanced at Mark for a moment, just to see if he caught on. And of course he did, but he wasn’t going to say anything about it. How unfortunate.

“Oh, uhm, I don’t know. I have a lot of stuff to catch up on this weekend plus I have to work so- uh- I don’t think you’ll be seeing me this weekend.” You and Chae obviously knew you didn’t have that much to do, besides working, but Chae knew not to push your limit, even though she really wanted you to come party again.

The joy in her eyes replaced the lack of remorse in her voice as she spoke, “Awh, that’s too bad. Hopefully you can make it next time.”

Next to you, Mark grunted to himself and as you looked over he was on his phone. Mark was on his phone scrolling through random apps just to clear them again. He was just using his phone as a distraction to listen to your conversation.

And apparently, you had been staring so much at Mark that Miyoung coughed and brought the attention back to her.

“Well, it was nice seeing you both. Chae, can’t wait to see you at the party, but Mark and I are gonna go sit back with our friends,” she smiled and waved.

Like a puppy, Mark followed her without hesitation and without a word. What a fucking joke. What was he? A pussy. You said it before and the statement still stands. Why was he so afraid of her? And even if he wasn’t afraid of her, why doesn’t he speak up about her obnoxious behavior? Jaehyun, that was probably why. But even then, you knew Chae didn’t like his sister, and you knew Chae had told him in the past that she doesn’t like Miyoung. Ugh, all these thoughts about her make you want to vomit and cry. It was giving you a major migraine.

“Hey, Chae. I’m gonna go home, is that okay? I don’t have any more classes and I don’t want to stay on campus.” You asked her as you rubbed your temples with your index and middle finger.

“Oh gosh! Of course you can, babe. Miyoung’s an absolute ass. You don’t have to wait for me. Jaehyun and I are planning to catch a movie or something later, anyway.” Thoughtfully, she rubbed your arm and gave the glare to the back of Miyoung’s head.

As your lunch time was coming to an end and students were starting to leave, you and Chae went your separate ways. Her to sit next to Jaehyun (and Renjun) for the time being, and you to your car.

When Chae sat at the table, Johnny and Jaemin had asked her where you had gone.

“Home. Poor angel felt a little sick so she decided to go home and get some rest. Plus she has work later so she’s gonna try to catch up on some homework.” She pouted to herself as the two men ‘oohed.’ And a secretive Mark had been scrolling through his phone again, only listening to Chae explaining why you had left early.

Mark and Jaemin had their next class together and so it was normal for them to walk together to the building where their lecture was held. And as they were on the path, Jaemin had called you to make sure you were okay.

“Hey, Y/n,” immediately, Mark’s ears perked up at the mention of your name and zoned out to focus on the conversation you and Jaemin were having.

“Yeah, Mark and I are heading to our next class right now. But you should call out of work today, you don’t seem to be well all of a sudden. I’ll come by later and you, Chae, and I can work on our anatomy work… Or we could just watch a movie and eat fatty takeout.” Faintly Mark could hear you laugh through the speaker of Jaemin’s phone.

“I’ll try. I’ll text you guys in the group chat if I don’t end up going to work. But Chae said she’s gonna go out with Jaehyun tonight so it might just be you and I.” And Mark. If he successfully convinces Jaemin to tag along.

“Sounds good. Chae and Jaehyun are probably gonna fuck, we all know them,” he joked which made you laugh out loud, which Mark could hear. Dammit he missed you.

The two men sat at their places next to each other in the lecture room and a brave Mark brought up the conversation Jaemin was having with you.

“You and Y/n are going to hang out tonight?” He asked.

Now, Jaemin was no stranger to the two of you. He knew exactly what happened with the two sides of the story and agreed with you that Mark was an asshole. The breakup was pretty much mutual (hence Mark not fighting for your love), and you and Mark had pretty much mutual friends. Nothing was weird. You made sure nothing was weird.

Well, nothing was weird until Mark asked that question. Jaemin knew that he was leading on to more than that one question.

“Yeah, why? Something wrong?”

“No, I was just wondering.” Pussy.

The two didn’t really speak that entire class.

—

That was the last class of the day for Mark while Jaemin had another lecture to go to before he was done. With an ‘okay’ from Jaemin, Mark drove off to the frat house he lived in without his friend.

It was only Jeno and Donghyuck home when he reached the house but he didn’t pay much attention to their screams of, “YOU KILLED ME YOU FUCKER.” or “SHOOT HIM.” Them and their games.

He strolled into his room and laid on his bed with his hands covering his face. Besides the muffled shouting of Hyuck and Jeno, all he could hear was the faint ticking of his clock and his breathing.

He could be at your house making you feel better. Making you laugh. He missed the way your eyes crinkled up when he made a lame joke. He missed replacing the frown on your face. But now, he was the reason there was a frown on your face. It was him and Miyoung that were causing you to be sad so much. And it was Miyoung who was pulling him even further away from you.

Mark took his phone out of his pocket and tapped on his contact list. There you were. One tap away from him hearing your voice again.

Did you get a new number? It looked like you got a new phone but maybe you got a new phone case? Would you even pick up? Was he blocked on your phone? What would you say? What would he say?

Unconsciously, he pressed the ‘call’ button before ending it and before the second ring had a chance to make its sound. Oh God, he just fucked that up in five seconds.

He looked like a complete idiot and he knew that if you were here with him, right now, you would have laughed in his face. But that was all he wanted right now. He wanted to be met with your optimistic  presence again. He wanted you to make fun of him just for the joy you got from it.

He was a big dunce.

—

When his last lecture of the day had finally come to an end, Jaemin had texted you and asked if you could pick him up. You agreed, Chenle and Jisung said they might crash as well, just to cheer you up a bit more. Everyone in Mark's friend group— who were your mutual friends— knew what happened between the two of you but nothing really changed besides that.

As he sat on the passenger side of the car, you joked, “Hey what happened to your other ride?” He knew you meant Mark— and that you were joking— but laughed nonetheless.

And you didn’t even think to mention the call you received from Mark an hour earlier. You didn’t feel like telling Jaemin right now and honestly, when you saw Mark’s name pop up on your phone, the mini panic attack had started. Right before he quickly hung up and there sat the notification on your phone that read ‘Missed Call from Mark.’

“He was my ride. We had a class this morning and I didn't want to drive my car,” he snickered as he was putting on his seatbelt. “So you’re gonna go pick up those pricks too?” Was his follow up question.

You laughed and said, “Yeah. Chenle called me earlier and said that they don’t have plans. I just said you were going to come over and we were going to just hang out for the night. They might come over this weekend too, they don’t want to party, I guess.” Jaemin nodded in acknowledgement as he watched you drive to Chenle and Jisung’s apartment.

“Okay! We’re ready to par-tayy!” Shouted Chenle right as he opened your car door and climbed into the back seat. Jisung was too busy being embarrassed and hushing him as he climbed in after.

Chenle had asked if you were all going out to eat and after you said takeout, he immediately frowned and offered to pay.

“I’ve been craving sushi, actually. Can we go to the sushi place downtown?” Jisung had a gross expression shown on his face at the mention of sushi.

“We ate sushi like three times this week. I’m sick of it,” he complained.

“If you’re sick of it then Y/n can drop you off somewhere. Jaemin and Y/n don’t seem to have a problem with eating sushi.”

“Because they don’t live with you! You-” Jaemin cut them off and came to an agreement hopefully everyone would agree with.

“OKAY! How about we all eat takeout? Chenle can order us some sushi and Jisung can buy whatever else is on the menu. Y/n and I don’t really feel like eating out tonight either.” Jisung poked out his tongue at his roommate as Chenle pouted and huffed out, “Fine. But I’m not paying for whatever Jisung is getting.”

You laughed at the younger boy, “That’s fine. Jaemin and I got it.”

The rest of the afternoon and evening went by like a whirl. You completely forgot about the missed call from Mark until everyone was packing up and leaving. It was almost ten p.m. but it felt so early. Plus Chae wasn’t even home. Maybe she’d stay the night with Jaehyun? You don’t know.

The three boys helped you clean the food and blankets and drinks from your living room and soon were ready to leave. You were going to drop the three off, you were their ride, anyway. Luckily, Chenle and Jisung lived together so you didn’t have to make three stops.

As you pulled up to the frat house (because it was closer than Chenle and Jisung’s apartment), Mark and Miyoung were talking outside. They weren’t fighting, they didn’t even seem mad at each other, but whatever they were talking about seemed to be intense. You could feel the tension between the couple. But then again, maybe it was you. And maybe it was you who was being a pussy.

You pulled up in the driveway as Jaemin looked at you and stared at them having their conversation. Gently, your friend placed his hand on your shoulder and gave you a little squeeze.

“You good?” He thoughtfully asked.

You blinked and turned your head to face him, “I’m good, thank you.” Jaemin stayed in the car for a moment longer, not believing your words but not pushing for an answer.

“Hey, I’ll see you tomorrow, yeah? I’ll pick you up and we can have a mini breakfast.”

Chenle and Jisung sat in the back, quietly observing Mark and Miyoung having their intimate (??) conversation and Jaemin comforting you while you’re acting like you’re not hurting. Quite the show.

You nodded to Jaemin’s words as he unbuckled his seatbelt and got out of the car. Chenle and Jisung had wished him a goodbye as well and before you even left the driveway, you tried to figure out what Miyoung and Mark were saying to each other but also what they said to Jaemin while he was trying to go inside. Mark and Miyoung looked back at your car anyway. Your headlights were flashing slightly on them.

The entire ride to the boys’ apartment was silent. After watching Mark and Miyoung, Jisung and Chenle were quite terrified to even speak to you on the ride back to their house. And by the time you parked in the garage of their apartment complex, the two younger boys had noticed your sniffling.

There were zero tears in your eyes, from what they saw, but they knew you were hurt in a stage like this and wished you the best. It took a moment for them to exit your car. They did want to change their minds and ask to sleep over at your place (since Chae was most likely not going to come home) but you drove them all this way and they didn’t want you wasting your gas.

“Are you sure you’ll be okay, Y/n?” asked Jisung one more time as Chenle waited outside and waited for your reaction. You knew that they knew that you were in anguish.

“We’ll be a call away if you need anything. Jaemin and Jeno are down the street from you as well. But if you have any problems just call us and we’ll be over. We’re a better duo than them anyway,” joked Chenle as he shut the door and the boys waved you their last goodbye for the night. You were so appreciative of the friends that you had. And you were grateful none of them made it weird (being friends with the ex-lovers and all).

Once you made it home and did your daily night routine, you laid in your bed all alone. The entirety of your house was quiet besides the sounds of your breathing and the occasional sounds of cars driving by. The rustling of your bed sheets and comforter, broke the deathly silence as you reached over to your nightstand and unplugged your phone. Your wallpaper that was a picture of you, Chae, Jaemin, Jeno, Chenle, and Jisung lit up the little area surrounding your phone and onto your face. The ‘Missed Call from Mark,’ was still one of the notifications that sat in your phone all of this time. You forgot to clear it out.

And without thinking twice, you clicked the notification to be met with the black background of the call. You fucking called Mark Lee. And without another thought, your finger quickly pressed the ‘End’ button and held your phone against your chest. You cannot believe you just did that.

As you were surrounded with your thoughts for a mere moment, you could hear the faint laughter of Mark as if he were there and saw the ghostly expression that was written on your face. But that was all you wanted. You wanted to regain the joy you had whenever you got the chance to hear his contagious laugh.

☹ ☹ ☹

Hey, who took my place in bed when I left?

Who laughs at everything that you've said?

Mark was unable to sleep that night. The second right after he saw your name appear on the bright light of his phone, his heart immediately dropped to his ass. He didn’t know if his heart dropping was a good or bad thing but he knew he felt something when he saw ‘Y/N <3’ pop up on the screen of his phone. Yes, he hasn’t changed your contact name on his phone.

It could have been a mistake. But for some reason, something was calling Mark (you) and saying that it wasn’t a mistake. Which in a way it wasn’t a mistake. But you really did not mean to call him, your heart and finger just took the best of you.

So there lied, Mark Lee. He was laying on his bed, tucked in and ready to get some shut eye until the mere thought of you popped up in his mind once more. Great, now he really couldn’t sleep. After the notification of your call, he had been tossing and turning in his sheets for what seemed like the past 10 minutes.

Thinking back to earlier that night, he remembered when you pulled up to the frat house and inconveniently saw him having a conversation with Miyoung. He saw the look of despair on your face as Jaemin clouded his peripheral vision. The couple greeted the younger boy as he walked into the house. Jaemin wanted to have a conversation with him after Miyoung left. Mark knew the look Jaemin was giving him, anyway.

Jaemin didn’t want to tell Mark any of the feelings you have felt— some of which you have shared with him and some he just observed— but it felt like this was the only option. Jaemin cared about you, and he didn’t want his dumb friend to fuck everything up for the rest of the friend-group that the two of you shared. And so for now, Mark had only his thoughts about what Jaemin had said and the prior phone call he had received from you.

Mark couldn’t help to wonder why you had decided to call him. Then again, it was his mistake in the first place to call you. Maybe he should have blocked your number in the first place. Because now all Mark could think about was how you were doing in this moment of confusion and hopelessness. He wanted to know if you were still up or if you went out for a drive. He knew you did that often, especially at night when you had the time to dwell upon your miserable thoughts. Should he go for a ride too?

However, you did not get out of bed and go for a drive that night. To be honest, you just didn’t want to, even though you needed to compose yourself with a drive but there were things in your house that could do the equivalent of a quick night drive, plus you didn't have to waste your gas. Getting out of the sheets, you went to your bathroom and started up a quick bath, hopefully that would restore some of the peacefulness that hid within yourself. Right now, you were more confused than ever and you really needed the relaxation.

Mark, on the other hand, did go for a drive. After contemplating with himself for a moment, he thought fuck it and got his keys to drive around the neighborhood and try to compose all of the thoughts that were running through his brain. And without knowing, he drove by your house about three times; just making— illegal— u-turns, and driving past. Again, he did it unknowingly for the first two times. The third time he finally noticed but he had to drive past your house to get back home.

While driving past your house (which seemed to be lulled by slumber, besides the one light that seemed to be on), Mark couldn’t help but to wonder who was home— Jaehyun wasn’t home yet so he assumed he and Chae were still out. Probably at a random motel or something, you know, spending the night there.

Just as he drove by, one of the bedroom lights turned on and he saw the slight silhouette of your figure walking around the room. Huh, you were up. He wanted to know if anyone was with you. He had a hunch Chae wasn’t home but what if you were with someone else. Even if it was a one night stand, what if you were with someone that wasn’t him?

It made him calm, having the thought that you weren't spending your nights alone, but it still irked him and he was itching to know if you had been with anyone since the split. He wanted to know if you spent your time in your bed with another person that wasn’t him. He wanted to know who took his place in your bed when he left. And it made him lose his mind.

Get a hold of yourself. You were a dick. And you still are a dick.

Mark mentally slapped himself in his face and drove off to his house. Alone. He didn’t want Miyoung to sleep over anyway, he was much more comfortable by himself. Though probably more comfortable with you.

—

The following morning, Na Jaemin stuck to his word. He had you up by ten in the morning on your way to get some brunch. It was only the two of you. You did want to invite Chenle and Jisung but you remembered they had a nine a.m. class so they would not be able to attend. Chae also did not come home that night and Jaemin also expressed how thankful he was that Jaehyun did not bring her home. It made you laugh. They were loud motherfuckers.

Unfortunately, at the small brunch place, Mark and Miyoung were sitting at a table near the window of the cafe. You only noticed when Jaemin noticed. He didn’t do a good job of hiding them.

“Don’t look back!” But it was too late. Jaemin was too obvious in his actions which made you curious and you looked behind you. The back of Miyoung's head faced you as Mark looked around the shop just in time to catch your gaze. Yikes.

Awkwardly, you flashed him a small smile and turned back to face Jaemin. You gave him the wide eyes, although partially joking.

“I told you!” He laughed which made you laugh aloud and slightly turn your head back to the couple. Jaemin tried to distract you from your feelings and it didn’t really work. Joking was the only way you knew that would help you cope with them, especially with Jaemin and the couple right there.

While the two of you sat near the barista’s, Mark had been constantly flickering his eyes from Miyoung to you. Though he could only see the back of your head (like that last time during lunch), he could see how much you loved being there with Jaemin. With the look of happiness that spread on Jaemin’s face and the slightly loud laughter that escaped your lips, he could tell you two were enjoying your time together.

Was Jaemin stealing you from him? Did Jaemin secretly have feelings for you?

Answer: no. Mark was just too much of a worry-bug that he just so happened to have those thoughts in his head. What was he thinking anyway? Jaemin was his friend and he knew that Jaemin wouldn’t do that to him. Or to you.

He just hated seeing you two together. He very much just wanted to see you with Chae and Chae only. It was selfish and utterly unbelievable that he had these concepts in his head. Not that he would ever admit them to anyone.

“Mark!” Miyoung quietly shouted out to the boy sitting across from her. You and Jaemin had just walked past the couple right before she shouted his name. Mark was too busy looking at you that he didn’t even realize he was looking at you the entire time. He didn’t realize the conversation he was having with Miyoung.

“What is your problem Mark? Why are you acting so weird?” She clearly did not see you and Jaemin. Which was good for him since he didn’t want her to cause unnecessary drama in their friend group. You didn’t like her but you just kept to yourself. You didn’t let anyone bother you. Okay, maybe you let Mark and Miyoung bother you a little bit. But you didn’t want them to know, they didn’t need to know you were irked with their relationship anyway.

Mark pictured your smile in his head, completely dodging Miyoung’s questions. Quickly, Mark left Miyoung in a hurry. Hopefully for a chance to catch you. Catch you in a way he never had before.

He didn’t know what he would do. But he knew he would do anything to see that smile plastered on your face, even if it were for just a moment. He’d treasure it for the world. It was probably too late for that, though.

☹ ☹ ☹

I'm sure that I would like her

If I were slightly nicer

Miyoung seemed nice. Maybe slightly fake, but nice. She was not as nice to you than she was to Chae but maybe it was because Chae was seeing her older brother. Now, the two girls were not friends, it was more like they were friendly to each other.

You, on the other hand, were nice. Probably not as nice as you’d like to be but, hey, at least you weren’t a bitch. It was only that you couldn’t bring yourself to be nice with Miyoung, you could barely even have a conversation with her, for crying out loud. The only memory you had of her was when she and Mark were getting closer but also that one night at the party. And it had been about three weeks since then. They were hosting another one tonight, it was Friday after all.

Chae made you go once again. Though she didn’t push you when Miyoung mentioned it a week ago, she was pushing you now. And damn were you getting annoyed.

“I already told you, no!” You shouted to her as she got ready in your bathroom.

“C’mon Y/n, don’t be such a party pooper,” your friend dragged.

“They don’t seem to want me there so I’m not gonna go. Plus when Miyoung asked, it looked like she was inviting you and you only. I don’t wanna show up with a half-ass invitation and lack of enjoyment,” you tried to reason with her.

Chae sighed to herself and put down the brush she was fixing on her face. She then looked to you who was laying on the bed. “All of our friends are going to be there. Jaemin and Jeno would be pretty upset if you didn’t show up.”

You also gave her the big sigh and looked at her in the eye, “Chae, I love you, but our friends are always there and I am always never there. I’ll be fine alone if you’re so concerned. I’ll even drop you off and pick you up at the end of the night. But I. Am. Not. Going.” You repeated. Defeated, Chae huffed out a ‘fine’ and got back to doing her makeup and getting ready.

“You’re gonna drop me off looking like that?” She gasped as you stood by the door, looking down at your clothes. Plaid pajama pants and an oversized sweater (probably one of Mark’s).

“Chae, I’m only dropping you off… Now get into the car or so help me god I will literally kick your ass.” She threw her arms up in awareness and put on her shoes before giving you one last glance. God, you wanted today to be over with already.

Turned out you were not going to ‘only drop her off.’ Johnny, quite literally, took you out of your hat and carried you into the house. And all in your pink pajamas and forgotten oversized hoodie. Just fucking great.

“No one’s gonna care that you’re in your pajamas Y/n,” he said. What a load of bullshit. And the man wasn’t even drunk. Tipsy? Most likely, but not heavily intoxicated. You were the laughing stock of the party. Where in the hell did Chae even go? It hadn’t even been three minutes and off she went running to who knows where.

Once he put you back onto the floor, you made a run for it back to your car. But tipsy Johnny was a slick motherfucker and caught you before you had the chance to even make it to the front door.

“Hey, what’s going on?” Mark and Jeno pushed through the little crowd that decided to surround you and Johnny and cause a ruckus. Mark stood there with wide eyes to be met with you. Was that his gray hoodie? He tried looking for that sweater for ages.

Mark dragged Johnny out of the way and tried to clear the people that were starting to surround you as Jeno went up to you and asked what the hell was going on.

“I just came by to drop off Chae, but Johnny saw me and literally carried me inside. I don’t want to be here, Jeno,” you whined in your hand as the boy rubbed your back to try and relieve some of the stress you had. Mark came back alone, having already dealt with a tipsy Johnny, and walked up to you and Jeno, not getting rid of the sight of you still wearing his old seater. It brought a slight smile to his face.

Jeno addressed the situation to Mark as you sat beside the younger boy. Where the fuck was Jaemin? He went to pick up Chenle and Jisung and only five minutes after the whole incident did he see you in the living room so uncomfortable in between Jeno and the couch’s armrest.

He walked closer to you two and only then did he see Mark sitting beside Jeno and Miyoung sitting right beside Mark. Of course. He rolled his eyes to himself. The four of you sat in complete silence, though, compared to the whole house that was blasting with music and cheers.

Chenle and Jisung went to greet some of the people that were present at the party and soon made their way toward their seniors. They each greeted you and after they did, you got up and told them you were leaving.

“If Chae doesn’t go home, make sure to call me. I’ll pick her up unless she wants to stay with Jaehyun,” you explained to them. Each of the boys (plus Miyoung) nodded at your words and got up to say goodbye and wish you a good night. Though this night had not been good to you at all.

Jeno, being the responsible person he was, told you that if he sees Chae he will let you and her know and keep an eye out for her. You appreciated his help. Jaemin wanted to meet you at your house but you took the hint that he wanted to stay, he even picked up Chenle and Jisung. The three boys wanted to party, you knew that. Even though they said they didn’t want to party the last night you saw them. Mark, well, Mark was too busy looking at you to even bid you a goodbye. And Miyoung, she quickly waved you a goodbye and walked further into the house, probably the kitchen to down a shot.

But Mark had other plans and followed you out. When you tried to get into your car and shut the door, something paused you from doing so. Surprise, surprise, it was Mark. Tired of the games, you got out and shut the door to face him. His hand was wrapped around your wrist.

“What do you want, Mark? I’m tired and I want to go home,” you rubbed your face with one hand and looked back to the front door which was wide open. Through the few people crowding it, you saw Miyoung. Damn she took a fast shot. It seemed like she was talking to her friends but in reality she was looking at the two of you. The two ex-lovers… the scene played out just like the day you broke up with him. Only with a much larger audience.

“Is that my sweater?” He asked, breaking the silence, his gaze still on you.

“I-I don’t know. It was just on my chair and I was too lazy to get a shirt,” you were so tired of everything and all you wanted to do was go home. Maybe go on a drive and then go home but you just wanted to get away from the proximity of the frat house. You wanted to be alone.

But for some reason, Mark wanted to pick an argument with you.

“Why do you still have it?” Just then, behind Mark, appears Miyoung, wearing his zip-up hoodie over her scandalous outfit. She definitely just went to his room and grabbed it. Clearly she has zero shame in being a homewrecker.

“What’s going on here, babe?” The pet name made you want to slap her and him in the face (with your rings on) and drive off. But you were better than that, right?

Yes. But oh, were you so damn close to grabbing her by the throat and throwing her across the yard and grabbing Mark’s collar and shoving him down to the ground. You kept your composure though, there were too many people around for you to do that.

Quietly, Mark pushed her off and told her he would meet her inside. She tried to budge but Mark was not having it. And so, giving in, she pouted and walked back inside, not forgetting to peck him on the cheek. She was quite the actress wasn't she?

“Listen Mark, I gotta go. I have to catch up on some work and-” you were cut off.

“It’s always you and work Y/n! You never had time for me. For us. For any of your friends. Maybe that was why we didn’t work!” What?

“Excuse me?” You were in utter disbelief. Mark just yelled at you. What the fuck was wrong with him? It wasn’t his place to be the one yelling at you.

“Well, I’m sorry I’m not like Miyoung. Unlike her, I work my ass off to get the shit that I have now. I worked my ass off to try and get our relationship back to the way it was! But that… that-that,” you didn’t want to call her a bitch, even though she was, “she-devil put some fucking spell on you to disregard all of the hard work I put in for me and for us. Our friends had been there for me when you weren’t and I always feel bad for taking them away. At least I realize that I’m not their only friend. I’m not selfish. Not like you and not like that stupid chick that’s childishly waiting for you. And you can go ahead and tell Jaehyun everything I said about his sister to him. I don’t care anymore. I’m done. And I’ve been done with this seven months ago. So quit coming back into my life. I’m tired and I don’t want to see you.” That felt nice, though the tears that started to fill your eyes said otherwise.

“Y/n, she-” he continued.

“I don’t care anymore, Mark! What don’t you understand? I don’t want to hear anything about her. Yeah, maybe I would have liked her… If she didn’t try to steal my boyfriend away from me. I get it, she gets everything she wants. Even fucking people, okay. But I can’t be nice and pretend like this doesn’t hurt, dude. That’s too much to ask for don’t you think?” The tears have now fallen and you raised your hand to wipe them. He released his grip on your wrist which you didn’t even realize and looked back inside.

“Just go back inside. I don’t want to deal with this tonight. Your friends and girlfriend are waiting for you,” you choked out and motioned to the front door that was still opened. There stood Jaehyun (with an already drunk Chae by his side), Miyoung, Jaemin, and Jeno. They heard almost everything that came out of your lips.

“If you would just listen I-” you had enough of his bullshit.

“Listen to what?! Just get over it and get a damn grip! You’re driving me absolutely insane.” You pushed him aside and quickly got into your car, locking the doors in the process and breathing heavily. You sobbed into your hands and for once it seemed as though he listened to you and left you alone.

Stupid fucking prick.

Hey, I'm parked across the street from your

house

The lights were on, the music got loud

The drive home was a blur, literally. With the tears that still clouded your vision, it was a success that you didn’t crash your car. Instead of going straight home, though, you went out for the drive that you desperately needed and treated yourself to some late night Mcdonald’s. You deserved it especially after the whole shenanigan that just played out. You were sad, tired, and hungry. Scratch that, you were hangry.

Just as you were about to pull into your driveway, lights flashed in your house as the reverberating music vibrated probably through the entire neighborhood. What the fuck?

—

You knew that if Chae was sober she would have fully regretted it.

Right after you left and Mark came back inside (stabbed in the heart),  Chae decided to scream out, “Moving the party to my house! 23 Dove Avenue!” Miyoung obviously encouraged it, but right when the word ‘party’ came out of Chae’s lips, your friends knew it was all a bad idea. You, for sure, were not going to talk to any of them for weeks. They wouldn’t blame you though.

And that’s how people ended up at your house. And that’s how you ended up more angry than you’ve ever been in your life. Chae was literally going to suffer in your hands. What the fuck was she thinking?

You came inside as people greeted you— they mostly laughed— but everyone could see the steam that was coming out from your ears and the puff of your cheeks trying to suppress all of the anger within you.

When Jaehyun caught a glimpse of you, he gathered Jeno, Jaemin, Renjun, Donghyuck, Chenle, and Jisung to get people out of the house while a drunk Johnny passed out on your couch. God, this whole thing was such a mess. You tossed your unfinished burger on the table and sat on the floor with your knees tucked up against you as you just sobbed. As if tonight wasn’t draining enough.

Just as Miyoung walked through the door, she was pushed out. She decided to go with Mark but he had sat in the car and came up with some lie that he had to look for something in the backseat, too scared to even look at the front yard of your house. He was parked right in front. He had a clear view of what was going on.

“Jaehyun, what's going on? I thought the party was here?” She asked her older brother. Jaehyun had set Chae onto her bed. She drank way too much in such a short amount of time, no doubt she was knocked out. The ride here was not so eventful for her besides the vomit that now sat down the road on the curb coming to your house.

“We were never supposed to come here, Miyoung. Go back outside and tell Mark to drop you off at Mom and Dad's house. There’s no more party,” he informed his little sister whilst walking toward your shaking figure. Everyone was such an idiot. How could they do this to you? Whatever they did, they all felt guilty. Even Mark. Especially Mark.

When she walked back outside and asked Mark to drop her off, he declined. He didn’t want to see her tonight.

“Mark! What do you think you’re doing?” She shouted as he drove home and left her on the street.

“What I should have been doing all along,” he answered the question to no one in particular besides himself.

He came home and cleaned up the mess from the party, just to help him clear his mind. He threw away all of the trash and took a cold shower and then lied straight into bed. What did he just get himself into?

I doubt you would've seen me

I hid from everybody

Mark didn’t even see you enter your house. Of course, Miyoung was too busy talking to him for him to even notice. Then again, maybe she was just talking to him to make sure he wouldn’t look back and see you. But also, Mark was a coward and Miyoung knew that he probably couldn’t and wouldn’t show his face around you, at least for a while.

You didn’t even realize Mark was parked across the street either. That was until Jisung pointed out that Miyoung was still at your house, thinking that Mark was still parked across the street and too scared to even set foot on the premises. It made Donghyuck and Renjun punch him on his shoulder which made Jisung whine.

At this point, people were long gone and the only people left were the friend group and Miyoung (who was standing off to the side, scrolling through her phone and waiting for someone to take her home). She had said that Mark didn’t wait for her and went straight home, without an explanation as to why. He just left her. Serves her right.

As your friends tried to comfort you, the sobs that had escaped you quietly dissipated.

You finally spoke up, “Please, can everyone go home. I can't deal with all of this right now. I just need time to think.” The boys all looked at each other before sighing to themselves. You have already been through enough.

“If you need anything just call us and we’ll be here,” said Jeno.

“I know we don’t talk as much but just know we’ll kick Mark’s ass when we get home,” added Donghyuck and Renjun.

“We’re not picking you over Mark but we’re also not picking Mark over you. Both of you are our friends and friends are there for each other. If you need someone to talk to I'll be here. We’ll all be here for you, Y/n,” continued Jaehyun, giving you a last hug.

“And you,” he pointed to his sister, “get into the car. I’m gonna drop you off but we’re gonna have a talk later.” Obediently, Miyoung followed her brother’s orders, as well as sulking in her own guilt.

You couldn’t be grateful enough to have friends like them. They truly cared for you and always wished you the best. Even after the breakup they were the bestest people you had ever met in your life. You wouldn’t trade them for anything.

☹ ☹ ☹

Hey, I feel like if we gave it one night

You'd hate me less and make it alright

It was now Sunday and luckily, Chae was nice enough to text him your work schedule. You worked at a small self-owned boutique which sold men and women business attire. Your boss was also a big bitch but the pay was good and there were barely any customers. So when Mark came through the door and the bell ding-ed, you didn’t think much of it. That was until you actually saw who it was.

Mark was shitting bricks when he pulled up to the boutique. But he put on his big boy pants and drove all the way here so he might as well face his fears. He was a grown man and he needed to deal with his problems like a mature person. It was also him who was a big fuck and ruined everything not only between the two of you but also (potentially) his fellow frat members and friends.

When Mark pushed past the door and you finally caught a glimpse of him, your heart started to beat faster. Not really in a good way either.

You looked at one of your co-workers who was getting ready to greet him before you pulled them down below the counter.

“Y/n what the hell are you doing? There’s a customer,” they frantically said.

“Shh! If he asks, I’m not here. If he’s really looking for clothing items, I’m still not here.”

“W-what? What do you mean?”

“I mean I don’t want to see that stupid ass. Just say I’m on a lunch break or something.”

Slightly annoyed, your co-worker sighed and got back up, greeting Mark with that work voice. He had been looking around the boutique, in hopes to see you.

“Hi, welcome to Boutique & I! How can I help you?” Mark looked around once more, he knew you were here somewhere. He just wanted to talk to you.

“Yeah, hi. I’m looking for Y/n. Is she in yet?”

You knew it.

“Uh, I’m sorry she’s not, out for break. You just missed her.” Your co-worker awkwardly laughed, “I’m absolutely able to help you though.”

You heard Mark sigh to himself as he agreed to get some help. Where the hell was he going? Why did he need to come here to get fancy clothes? Miyoung probably invited him to one of their prestigious business events. In reality, Mark wasn’t going anywhere. He just knew you were working and you were not on your break. He saw your car outside anyway.

As your co-worker tried to distract him by sorting through the rackets, you quickly made your way to the back office to get a bottle of water or fresh air or something. But Mark wasn’t even paying attention to the clothes that were presented in front of him, so he got to see you.

“Y/n!” Big yikes.

You froze on the spot as your God-bless co-worker tried to distract him once more. But it was too late. Mark grabbed you by the forearm and pulled you outside. You looked back and saw your co-worker giving you the ‘sorry’ eyes and pointing to their phone. They were probably going to call Chae for you.

“Y/n, can we just talk?” he begged as you fussed in his grasp.

“Talk about what?” You started, “Who am I kidding? Of course I know what the fuck you want to talk about, Mark. Listen to me, okay. Because this is the last time I’m going to say it: get over it. You’re with Miyoung, and I’m completely fine all alone. I don’t need to surround myself with people like the two of you.”

You didn’t let him continue, “You know what? Maybe that’s why you two are so good together. A homewrecker and a little bitch, it’s a good combo, don’t you think?”

“Y/n, I know I’ve been a bitch and a dick and a pussy but I’m here to make it better. Look I’m sorry I said all of those things but-” You were more than outraged at this point.

“Now you’re sorry? You weren't sorry when I caught you being all lovey-dovey to her? You weren't sorry when I dumped you? What the hell have I been doing for three years of my life then?! You should have done this sooner so that I realized how much of a jerk you were and I wouldn’t have to waste years of my life with you. I get it, you didn’t sleep with her but you stuck up for her when I was at my lowest point. You kissed her on the cheek knowing damn well I was watching. I’m so over it!” You threw your head back to stop the tears from cascading down your face. You had cried enough and your eyes were as puffy as they could be.

“Just go home, Mark. You’re wasting both of our time here,” you pushed him away and walked toward the glass doors of your job. He was about to trap your arm again but his phone rang. Just in fucking time. Bitterly, you smiled at him and wiped your tears with the back of your hand, “Duty calls. Goodbye Mark. I wish you the best, I truly do.”

He hung up the phone call he was getting and quickly stopped himself in front of you so he was between you and the door. He held both his hands around your biceps.

“What are you even saying, Y/n? I just want to make this better!” He was starting to get heated. Of course he was.

“You can make this better by going away! I don’t want to see you anymore and if not seeing my friends is what it takes then goodbye to all of you. I’m so sick of pretending like everything is okay. I’m so sick of seeing you two together and hanging out with our friends. But they were yours first, right?” There was a brief pause.

“I don’t want to do this but you leave me no fucking choice. You’re absolutely crazy to think that I could forgive you right now.”

“But-”

“I love you, okay. But I just don’t think I can handle all of this right now…. I’ll be back. I’m sure we’ll all get along fine in a few weeks. Hell, maybe even a few months, but I can't see any of you right now. I need a break. I just need you to accept that. Can you please do that for me? For the sake of my heart and my mind?”

Slowly, your ex-lover let go of his hold on you and let you get back to your job. God, this was the hardest thing you’ve ever done. You walked back inside and grabbed some tissues from the office and took a few long breaths. And just as you were about to exit, Chae came bursting through the door and hugged you as tightly as she could, muttering apologies left and right. You deserved it. After long moments of hugs and sniffles, Chae released you from her hug.

“Mark is still outside. He wouldn’t budge. He’s just sitting on the steps with his head in his hands.”

One last time.

You exited the boutique and sat beside Mark. You sighed out and watched the sky turn to its purple shades.

“The sunset is beautiful, isn’t it?” The heartbreaking sentence left your lips. At a leisurely pace, Mark looked up at you only to see your head facing toward the horizon. Eyes closed yet still puffy.

“I love you, Y/n.”

You opened your eyes and faced him, giving him a bittersweet smile.

“I don’t doubt it, Mark. But our romantic love has died, and it’s time for us to move on. It’s okay to accept that,” you turned to him and wiped the tears falling onto his cheek. This will probably be the last time you would get to touch him like this; in such a vulnerable state.

If you did listen to him sooner, maybe things wouldn’t have turned out the way they did. But Mark needed to face reality. And that reality was that you no longer loved him in a way that you did eight months ago. Of course, your heart still belonged to him, it always will. Yet he still shattered your heart in a way that was unexplainable. It was just life, you guessed.

The words that left your mouth when you and he had been arguing hasn’t been real at all. They just came out in the heat of the moment, just to break his heart like he did to yours. It was selfish of you but you figured it would be the only way to get it through his thick skull. And finally, it seemed like it had.

But somehow Mark wanted more. He wanted to prove to you how truly sorry he was. And how much he meant that he loved you. If you gave him one last night, it would reassure him even more. Maybe you would even hate him less. Because whenever he was hurting, you were always there to make sure he was alright.

But what is done is done and there was nothing he could do now, except to love you unconditionally and keep a place in his heart and in his mind for you. No matter how much you seemed to hate him.

You never could truly hate him, though. He had shown you sides of him he had never shown anyone before, and for that you would always be grateful to be a part of his life.

☹ ☹ ☹

Just wish that we could fight now

I'd hold you on the comedown

Everything had been a mess. Your work and school life had taken the best of you and you really needed to let loose a little.

After the whole Mark and argument fiasco, all of your friends had been very supportive of your decisions. They understood why you didn’t want to see Mark. But they invited you to their party nonetheless (Mark wasn’t going to be there anyway).

But that turned out to be false.

Mark was there. Kissing all up on Miyoung. Right on the kitchen counter too.

So much for letting loose.

“Y/n!” shouted Jaemin and Jeno from across the room. That took you out of your head as you looked over to where their voices were heard from. They greeted you with a hug.

“We’re so happy you could make it! It’s been a wild two weeks,” Jeno pointed out and gave you his eye-smile.

“I’m so happy to be here, you don’t even understand. Now, where’s the drinks? I think I need one,” you exasperated.

The two boys laughed and guided you to the kitchen which you were no foe of. You knew their place like the back of your hand, with or without Mark.

You sat on the island stool for a while, chatting with your two friends until Chae and Jaehyun showed up. They looked a little angry. Okay, maybe angry was a bit too dramatic but they definitely didn’t look like they were having a good time. You knew Chae, and you knew that she wasn’t having fun. Plus you were just in the car with her all of not even twenty minutes ago.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” Was the first thing you said to them when they approached the three of you.

“Y/n!” Interrupted Jaehyun. It was almost like they avoided the question. They did, of course. Too scared to admit that they yelled at both Mark and Miyoung, knowing damn well you would be here. You’d been through enough and the least they could do was not be present. If the couple was just going to make out then they didn’t have to be here. Jaehyun and Chae couldn’t make them leave so Mark just brought Miyoung to his room. Guys are so fucking desperate, no?

Quickly, you realized that they were talking about who you thought they were (and who you just saw).

“Guys, it’s okay. I know you guys are trying to protect me but I haven’t even seen him nor Miyoung in two weeks. I’ll be okay.” You said.

—

A couple shots (and three mixed drinks) later, were you not doing okay. You hadn’t been this blackout drunk in months and for once it felt horrible. Good for the most part, but went down hill. Like, major.

At this point, everyone who was at the party had left besides the residents that lived here and your mutual friends (Chae along with Chenle, and Jisung who showed up later. Not to mention Mark and Miyoung who never showed their face the rest of the party and stayed caged up in the bedroom). But drunk you, the aftermath especially, was not a fun you. Your friends could test for that.

“I hate everything. I hate my life. Why am I so miserable?” You slurred your words and sobbed on their bathroom floor. Chae, Jaemin, Johnny and Jaehyun were awake long enough to make it to your breakdown sitting in your own sweat and resting your head on the toilet seat. Gross. Sober you was definitely knocking drunk you in the head multiple times.

“I miss Mark,” you sobbed even more. And just as he got out of his bedroom too. Nosy Mark poked his head into the slightly opened bathroom door as he heard those words. He knew that voice anywhere, and realized it was yours. When Mark’s head passed the door, he saw you sitting on the floor with his friends trying to wipe the makeup and throw up from your face and bathroom. Mascara had been running down your face, lipstick was smudged around your lips and even your teeth, and your foundation went patchy. It was not a cute look. Mark didn’t think so, though. You still looked pretty, even in your intoxicated state, all things considered.

“Where’s Mark? Is he still with that stupid fuck? Are they fucking? You know what they’re both stupid fucks…. fucking each other and everything! Ugh! What was I thinking? Why did he and I even date?” No one answered you but they looked back as they heard the bathroom door shut. Mark had just left and walked to the kitchen to get a cup of water.

When he closed the refrigerator and got the water he needed, he was met with Jaehyun who was looking at him with so much disappointment. He knew he was going to get a talk.

“Mark, I don’t care that you’re fucking my sister. You’re a good person. A good friend. But you’re really deteriorating Y/n’s health. Someone needs to finally tell you that besides Y/n herself. Because of you, she’s drowning in her own thoughts and now she’s blackout drunk. You need to learn that your actions lead to consequences that, sure, may not be a problem for you but they are causing major problems for the rest of us and-” Jaehyun was cut off with Chae dragging you out of the house. This was the first time she was sober while you were the one to be barely conscious. But it seemed like your whole crying scene was over. You just looked tired.

“Bye Jaehyun. I love you so so so much!” You laughed then looked slightly to the left. “Fuck you Mark! I hope Miyoung‘s pussy is-” Chae cut you off.

“Okay!! Goodnight guys. Sorry she’s so out of it!” Chae awkwardly laughed and mentally face-palmed herself while walking out the door. God, was this how she was every time she was drunk? She really had to rethink her decisions.

Chae threw you into the backseat of her car.

“Hey! I wasn’t done. That motherfucker deserves-” you stumbled over your words.

“You’re done for today, babe. I’m gonna drive slowly so please don’t throw up in my car. Go on the sidewalk, I don’t care, but please not in my car. I’ll run you a shower when we get home, okay?” You cheekily smiled at her, “I want a bath, though.”

“Okay, I’ll run a bath for you and then tuck you in, okay?” She looked in the rearview mirror. You didn’t look like you were going to puke so that was a good sign.

“Okay Chae, baby. I love you so much. Thank you,” and you feel asleep the rest of the ride home.

Once you were in the bath, Chae sat on the floor next to you, just to make sure you were okay and wouldn’t fall asleep in the bathtub. She also got you water to help you sober up.

“I feel like fighting with Mark still… You know, that was the closest I have been to him in seven months. He cried on the stairs of my workplace and I wiped them for him,” you started, the tears already swelling up in your eyes.

“I got to hold him for one last time. But Chae, what if I don’t want it to be the last time? What if I want to keep holding him? I asked him if the sunset was beautiful. Do you know the meaning of that saying?” You moved your head to the left. The quietness from her answered your question.

“It means ‘I love you, but I’m letting you go,’” you quietly laughed and played with the bubbles in the water, sucking in all the mucus that formed in your nose.

“But I don’t think I can.”

“You should, love. You need to.”

“I will… Maybe. But I can’t right now. I want to fight with him and I want to hold him again. I want him to make love to me again.”

“Angel, I know it hurts, and I know you're hurting. But he’s an absolute fool and he doesn’t deserve you. You already had him for three years of your life. You need to move on.”

“I thought I had moved on.”

“You haven’t, angel. I just need you to accept that. Please. For me and for you. For all of our friends. Forget about the cheater and the homewrecker.”

☹ ☹ ☹

I see you every night in my sleep

Anticipating every bad dream

You called out of work the next day. Well, when you woke up with Chae’s alarm next to you on the nightstand. You and Chae went home at about three in the morning and the hangover was beyond throbbing.

Your temples ached and your muscles were sore. You woke up with a bloated stomach and a bloated face. What the hell went on yesterday? You don’t know but holy shit did you regret whatever you did. The rest of the day consisted of rainy weather and hangover soups. Wow, did the weather correspond to your feelings.

Chae had called your friends to come over and hang out with you two (mostly you. You needed it anyway). They brought you soup, sweets, and Jeno even bought you a blanket. They were the best people to ever exist.

“I also brought some movies we could watch. You know, like the older ones. We can cry and laugh and love in all of them!” Said Jaemin who showed off the DVD’s he brought.

“You guys do have a DVD player, right?” He looked around and the tension in the room raised for whatever reason. But then Chae laughed and said, “Of course we do! I think I have to dig in one of the closets though.”

The night played out just as you liked. You enjoyed every minute spent with your friends and Donghyuck and Renjun who you didn’t know as well. Everyone spent their time happily and the two boys (Donghyuck and Renjun) proved themselves with karaoke that went well into the evening.

It was eleven at night when everyone left. Chenle and Jisung asked if they could sleep over which you obviously let them. They were annoying (especially when they were together) but they held a soft spot in your heart. Everyone bid goodnight and wished you the best before going to their cars and going their own ways. Funny enough, they all lived in the same house.

The four of you wanted to watch another movie in your bedroom before shutting in for the night. What could go wrong?

“Horror! I want to watch horror! Jisung quit being a baby!” Shouted Chenle.

“Chenle you’re being so loud! You’re gonna wake up the neighbors at this point!” Whined Chae.

“I don’t want to watch horror! You just want to watch it to laugh at me!” Jisung complained.

A lot. Maybe letting Chenle and Jisung sleep over with you and Chae was not a good idea after all. They could never come to a compromise.

“Chenle and I can watch horror. Chae and Jisung can watch another movie in the living room. How about that? So that we can watch what we want and then go to sleep,” you tried to help them out.

“But I want all of us to watch a movie together,” Chae pouted and fell back onto your bed. This was completely hopeless.

“Jisung, if you get scared just plug in your headphones and close your eyes. Chae, I know you can handle horror.”

“Hey!”

—

You fell asleep mid-movie and when Chae noticed, she shushed the two boys and pointed to you. They got what Chae was trying to say and turned off the movie as well as the tv and let you have a peaceful nights sleep. But that’s not at all what happened.

It might have been the horror movie that prompted the nightmare but you were having a horrible dream. The rustling of your sheets proved that.

The nightmare consisted of a knock on the door, a love letter, and none other than Mark. In said nightmare, there was a faint knock on your door, but it was one A.M.. Who the hell was up knocking at your door at this time? No one. It was probably just some ding-dong ditch thing. Until you heard the pick up in the wind which increased the rustling of the trees. As you looked around the neighborhood, you heard the faint tapping still coming from the door. In the front there was a note taped onto it. Where was Chae?

‘I miss you,’ the letter read. It was in red ink, and it was slightly messy. Just then a car pulled up and there stood Mark, a sinister yet innocent smile was plastered on his face. It showed his true intentions. As he walked closer to the door, you noticed there was another note in his right hand. But that hand seemed to be wounded. It was red. And it was dripping onto the pavement of your driveway. Just as he reached up the stairs, you woke up from your dream.

What the fuck?

What the hell kind of dream was that? Was it trying to tell you something? Even if it was, there was nothing that you didn’t know already. And that was that Mark was not good. He was. He just wasn’t good for you. Maybe you just needed an extra push to realize it before it was too late and you would do or say something you would regret. Which brought you back to last night at the party.

God what did you say to Mark and his friends? You sat up on your bed and looked out the window which let in the moonlight. You then let out a long sigh and hit yourself with a pillow. You were such an idiot. Ugh.

—

The house was quiet and cold when the boys came home. So either he was sleeping, or he was out with Miyoung (again). The friends voted for the latter. Ever since he showed up to your work two weeks ago, he had been hanging out with Miyoung more than ever. It was only fair that they thought Mark wasn’t home.

But he wasn’t.

Mark was home. Alone. With no one else's company besides himself. Did he mention he was alone?

When Donghyuck went into Mark's room to check if he was gone, he noticed the lump of blankets in his bed. He hadn’t left?

“Guys, Mark’s home,” said Donghyuck who was just as confused as the others.

One by one, each of the boys went to check up on Mark, not believing Donghyuck when he said he was home. And when Jaehyun finally went to see if Mark was really home, he’d been moving around in his sheets. Jaehyun called the rest of their friends and quietly watched as Mark continued to sleep uncomfortably. He had a nightmare that night too. Not so scary but it definitely gave him the shivers.

It took place at the same park you asked to meet Mark when you broke up with him. He was wearing the same clothes from that day, too. Even the sunset was the same. The same beautiful sunset on such a sorrowful day. He’d remember the setting for a lifetime.

He walked closer to your crouching figure. And he soon realized that you had been crying. He quickly ran to you to try and help but you soon turned around. It wasn’t what he was expecting when you turned to face him.

He woke up sweating. His face was hot and there was a sheer layer of perspiration covering his face. He sat up with his bed head and t-shirt slightly sticking to the skin of his back. This was all a mistake. But it was for the best, right?

☹ ☹ ☹

Bet you, wish you

Never even met me

I don't, blame you

Broke your every heartbeat

When Mark woke up the following morning, now grasping the fact that he hurt you— multiple times, at that— he wanted to make things right. To do that, he would do what’s best for you, and what you had been asking for all along. To get over it, and to overcome that large obstacle that came through both of your (love) lives.

Sometimes, when he went off into thought, he would imagine how he would feel if he was in the same situation you were in.

That’s how it was for Mark that entire Sunday. Going into thought and never exiting his room. His friends thought he snuck out the window or something, just to avoid them. But when they checked every hour, his car was still parked in the driveway. The same exact position every time, which made them realize that Mark really was just locked in his room. What could he be doing? Miyoung had constantly called her brother, asking everyone where Mark was and what he was doing.

“We had plans today! Are you sure he’s home? What if he’s at Y/n’s place?” Oh, was she going to get it.

“Jeong Miyoung, you need to stop! Stop taking Mark away, you’re literally draining him. And stop acting like you know Y/n. I know how much you didn’t like her, you still don’t. You’re my little sister and I love you but you’re going too far. Is this what you want? You want to create a broken friendship between us? Because we’re all tired of it. Quit acting like a princess and wake up. This is reality. And you’re hurting us all,” Jaehyun yelled at his sister through the phone and hung up before she got the chance to say something. Damn that felt good, he could only imagine how you would feel by yelling at her. But he knew you would never. You respected Jaehyun as a friend and didn’t want to say things that could hurt not only Miyoung but him as well. It was understandable.

Mark heard the entire conversation Jaehyun was having with Miyoung. And for once he felt at peace. She was calling him nonstop that day because he missed one date. If he would even call it that. Mark had wanted to freak out on Miyoung for a while now but never had the guts to do it because Jaehyun was his friend.

Now he knew why you hated him so much. He was starting to hate himself too. Because in the end, Mark was a huge pussy, and it was too late for him to realize it. The damage was done and he didn’t want to create any more disasters. Good for him.

☹ ☹ ☹

Like falling with a knife, you cut deep

You cut deep, you cut deep

Falling for Mark may have been one of the biggest mistakes you made. But you never regretted it. It was also post break-up, so of course you still dwelled on your feelings about him.

He hurt you in ways you could only imagine. It was a learning experience for sure, and you would forever be filled with gratitude to spend three years of your life with him. You would do it all over again. Maybe not the end, but it still taught you things about yourself and even Mark himself.

You know you said you wasted three years with him but those words just escaped you in the heat of the moment. You truly did love those three years. Those three years of ups and downs. Those three years of pure joy and pure sadness. Everything that the two of you went through happened for a reason. Even at the end.

It seemed like it hurt the most, especially when it came to the realization of things. But that’s what just made it better. You two blossomed into the beautiful flowers that you were. Everyone experiences things like this, things even worse than this.

There is still a patch on your heart from the last time Mark tried to pick up the pieces. And sometimes it still hurts. Falling for Mark was like falling with a knife. Although you wished to last, some things were never meant to be. He had a sharp edge and yet you still loved him regardless of the pain he caused. The love he had for you cut deep into your heart. It caused a permanent scar on your tapered heart. But you loved him nonetheless. Like you said, he would always have a special place in your heart.

And so, as you watched him on his dinner date with all of your friends, you knew that everything would be okay. You set them up anyway, and you knew it would work out. Yeah, it still hurt, but truly letting go of the person you love was the best decision you had ever made.

Watching the person you love fall in love with someone else felt almost like a prize.

—

“How’d your date go, dude?” You asked him, sitting on the harbor of the bay. The seagulls were flying and waves were splashing.

Mark smiled ear to ear, “It was amazing, dude. How was your food?”

Your friends and Mark’s current lover were with each other, waiting for the both of you to have a moment.

You laughed at his question, “So good. Chenle and Jisung still couldn’t stop fighting though.”

Thinking about the two younger boys made him smile even harder, “They always do.” You chuckled in agreement and closed your eyes as the wind slightly picked up. The serenity was slowly swallowing you.

“The sunset’s beautiful isn’t it?”

[smallishbabes]

I find it so funny how Technoblade has a persona of a bloodlust warrior who has years of experience winning competitions and training himself to become better than the best. A scary strategist whose always 20 steps ahead and always comes out on top no matter the cost. Each move made carefully thought out but also being able to be efficient in a fight-or-flight situation even when he’s outnumbered. When in actuality, he’s just a tall, anxious, ADHD nerd who plays Minecraft. He never leaves the house, he has a bad cough, doesn’t work out, hates confrontation, and doesn’t have a healthy diet (consists of mostly takeout I think correct me if I’m wrong). The dude would lose a fight 100%. I don’t doubt how smart he is. He aced multiple AP tests despite not taking them, the potato war, buildmart mcc 7, mcu, and had a good gpa (I think it was a 3.9 again correct me if not). Then you get a story about his experience in Midwest and how he didn’t think it was that cold, his entire lack of self-awareness during mcc 9 sky battle, and didn’t realize the leaf blower man comes only on Saturdays until mcc 10. He has his moments of being a dumbass. Techno is always making fun of his friends in the form of cyberbullying, is a big sellout, and acts very aloof with his fans. However, you hear stories from people like Sophietexas, Phil, Niki, and Bad saying how much of a sweet and considerate guy he is off-camera. And he puts in the effort to use fanart in his videos and comment on fan music and animations. The disparity between his reputation vs how his personality is so funny to me b/c of how ridiculous it is. And it’s one of the many reasons why I stan him.

[sepublic]

Any Sport in a Storm speculation

            WILLOW EPISODE!!! And Hunter too…!

         We know Hunter is going undercover here, as I’ve speculated, it might have to do with seeing how Hexside is beginning to foster some anti-Coven sentiments and ideas, so Belos wants a feel for how Luz is corrupting the youth before he steps in.

         The synopsis says that Willow is trying a new sport, and this is supported by different uniforms from the Grugdby ones! Viney, Skara, and Gus are her teammates… Skara development? Is she joining this new sport because she’s only a reserve player for the Banshees anyway? How does Boscha feel about this, is Skara leaving their friendship for Willow? Skarlow content???

         Willow looks like she’s really stepping up and embracing her strength as a witch, deciding to be a jock herself! GOOD FOR HER, will this last? I’d like to see it, but I can see Willow realizing that it’s not cut out for her; What matters is that she felt open and brave enough to to even experiment and try! The new hair and glasses… I better see an influx of fanart; It symbolizes her rebirth! Who’s betting the intro will change in response. Luz and Gus are cowering behind Willow, giving her the chance to show how she’s one of the strongest witches in this show!

         Gus seems to be doing an illusion; Probably tryouts, proving illusions ARE viable after some kids in the crowd doubt him, including Skara. Skara’s probably just trying to be nice and concerned like with King in Luz’s body… Love that continuity. Gus of course shows the extent of illusions and has probably grown since meeting the keeper and hanging out with Mattholomule!

         We’ve also got this familiar background character, in the uniform; Probably doing tryouts, only to brace herself for a nasty blow! Will Willow save her?

         Willow applies face-paint, as the sky gets darker…

         This transitions us into nighttime, and we see an Abomination cutting off our cast! This place looks like the heart-shaped pit created by Hooty in K3oHD, so it means the group is practicing/playing a nonformal match outside the Owl House! The Abomination has a bun… Darius? Alador? Are we seeing the Emperor’s Coven step in to apprehend Willow and Gus, after seeing how much Hexside has changed, and how they’ve contributed it via their protest last season?

         We have Hunter flying around on his undercover mission with Rascal, in the open! He’s got Potions track… Fits his aesthetic but also matches Luz and Eda, and how Luz was placed into Potions by Bump, implicitly because it accommodates a lack of magic bile! Does Belos know about Rascal and Hunter knows it? Did he always know? Did Belos cut a deal; Do this mission and you keep Rascal? Or he’s making Hunter feel even more indebted, showing how great of a guy he is for letting Hunter keep Rascal… Unless he messes up, so now Hunter has his AND Rascal’s life on the line to motivate him???

         Hunter does eventually get caught by Willow. Could be a misunderstanding, or Willow knows what’s up. Maybe this leads to Hunter being taken to the Owl House by a more assertive Willow… Why’s she playing a match tho, and with who? Will we see Ukla again, trying out this new sport as well? Boscha competing? What if Hunter being captured leads to Willow and the group being hurt and captured themselves; And after Willow made progress with him where Luz and Amity set things up, Hunter reaches out, hence the next episode’s title? HUNTLOW REAL?!

         I THINK this shot of Lumity is related to this episode. It’s nighttime and they’re in their school cowls, which if they just came from Hexside to watch this match, makes sense. They’re looking down; Seeing a shocking development in the sport? The arrival of enemies? That Abomination could just be that of the enemy team lol… It’s interesting.

        Also makes me wonder if this shot of Tibbles is related? Is this Amity’s magic or whoever is confronting Willow? Tibbles seems to be in the room where those dudes scammed Gwen, so was he in charge? Why is he back? Who is confronting him and why here? Are people trying to learn more about the curse and where it came from? If so it might not be this episode, who knows.

[redpiperfox]

...well alright then XD

Yknow, I've gotten 2 notable pieces of fanart: one from a scene in Interstellar, of Minho, Chan, and Lily running home; and another from one of my spotify drabbles, of Minho-Jungwoo-Minju, of Minho's car overlooking the city. Both really touched me!! I've tried to do some fanart of some of my works-- I think the first I tried was of the whole htbaf because my sister absolutely adores them and begs me for more from that au haha I think any of the AUs with all the kids? I feel like they would be really grand fun pieces: the whole Interstellar crew, Chan's Wind and Wish fantasy family, the Rosette Village, htbaf crew on the beach, wolves packhouse, Cleansed By The Sea Breeze beach day, etc... but I also do think some AUs are more visually built towards art than others? Like, for instance, Silent Cry and the dragons are all very visually built? Starchasers maybe, and the jedi-ish imagery? The Mers in Vast and Deep for sure, I've tried doodling them a couple of times XD I tried doing Show Goes On! circus art of Hyunjin Ryujin and Kyujin, because that atla inspired imagery is strong! I did a piece for Chaeryeong in They All Cry For Me... Scraps on the Floor was based on a little kids doodle someone on twt did that became Jeongin's drawing haha... Ooooh Talk that Talk 2hwang dragons is a vision? GREY WAIT-- Grey imagery is so strong, especially when Chan and Yeji have all the dyes on the floor and are coloring their hair haha... Dead Man Runnin' either Chan with Yuna in one of the last scenes on the train or like a scene of the train and all the guests sitting Agatha Christie whodunnit style XD Just Can't Prove It is also pretty visual, tho I can't think of one scene in specific.... maybe Yeji and Hyunjin on top of the hill overlooking the island, Hyunjin smoking, the forest all foggy? That was a HUGE driving imagery for writing that work! Brightest Stars oh oh Minho with the kids looking up at the sky and stars~~... Felix the cat in a dragon's claw while Minho watches in Me-ow? XD Or Felix held up in a lightning spell while Minho shouts from the group in my Kingdom AU that was what I imagined writing the whole thing, that and Minho holding Felix close to his chest!.... I should stop before I name a scene from, like, every work of mine XD Honestly, any art from any fic makes me absolutely alight in delight because writing fic is a very visual process for me, and if I can get that vision into my readers, than I feel like I've done well!!!

Oh ho YES! @the-sunshine-dragon dropped by on my crack zombie fic and I was delighted haha XD Twas the start of a great friendship!!!! And then @maelstromdeparture commented on Dead Man Runnin' and I was so so honored at the enjoyment Mael had for it! @felix8felicis always go back and forth about unreal, her fics are some of the biggest ones I first read and to find her in my angsty works was a treat haha There's been a couple others that I don't think are on tumblr, Momo_Momowrites, my first friend Tan, str4y on the first chapter of interstellar was so unexpected XD and then ofc YOU EI!!!! I was so delighted to see you in my kudos and comments!!! I think I get that initial "Wait a sec, I read you, why are you reading me??" that quickly turns into a friendship of mutual admiration, which I love <333

Oooh depends who asks!!! I had enough not fic short-stories published that I do like telling people usually that I write, but lately it's been just fic, so unless that person also writes fics or participates in DnD or something, I tend to not share as much? XD

GOOD QUESTION. IDK DUDE. XD For some stories I have this "cheat" sheet where I keep track of characters and stuff? But uh if the work is multichaptered I often forget to update it lol I'm great at self-sabotage like that XD This would in fact be why I'm better at one-shots where I can keep things in my head or know exactly where in the fic I need to reference and stuff!! I've already run into problems with Interstellar where people have called me out on inconsistency things alsdkjfhalskdjfh and also part of why I'm paralyzed to finish, sad to say T-T

If someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?

Have you had a writer you admire comment on your fic? What was that like?

When asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?

When it comes to more complicated narratives, how do you keep track of outlines, characters, development, timeline, ect.?

Everytime I try and answer this I get a pop-up about error in failing to process so lemme just make sure it's not the "answer" feature itself....

[windlion]

Malevolent podcast screamalong, Part 4!

When last we left off, I felt like I was watching a talk show where they pulled out the paternity test in front of the audience and then the screaming started.

Just. maybe more Ai Ai Ftaghn screaming here than high-octave outrage

Maybe.

Oh hey we're still hand in unlovable hand in the hell vacation world. "We"

Deeply fraught conversation time! On the black shore of a lake lit by violet like an off-color sunset. Where's my fanart at. You can put John in the reflection of the water, even!

"You found humanity" "I found the absence of you"

"I've changed, baby, you've got to believe me"

backed up by a "LET HIM TRY" *applauds* All right, that's compelling!

"Only the blood is still wet" "NEVERMIND THEN I'll be going!" "Yes that's probably for the best"

Huh, I guess Goth!Shelob fits in here, her camo isn't that bad after all

Arthur was a boyscout!

Is that, perhaps, an eye in the sky. Many different eyes in the sky.

And more of the visual fucking with John's perception

"Two appear before me" *That* is interesting~

"Here take this King in Yellow's egg surely it wouldn't be a bad thing"

Would you consider NOT pissing off the Angry Ent?

Arthur buddy you do not know when to shut up

Oooh skittery legs- rest of the Goth Shelobs?

Oh not Shelobs, Nightstalkers, cool cool cool

"Only when I'm out of options, same as anyone else" XD XD XD

Ohhh hey it was a duet on the piano

Awwww co-dependency

OH OKAY that changed topics rapidly

Has anyone considered using the MacGuffin y'know instead?!

Ohhhhhh please please please don't Not A Fan Of This

NOPE NOPE NOPE

bonding through sharing a little self-mutilation What the Actuuuual Fuck

NOPE NOPE NOPE

"I am here"

Ohhhhh that's a nope nope nope nope nope

That definitely uh, puts a spin on what the fuck the trader did. It traded.

Time to shift realms!

And now you remember the MacGuffin!

Arthur are you now wondering if you're being narcissistic "Is it you or just more of . . . me"

Arthur all "This is just temporary we're still going to split eventually" and John all "Mrrrrrrrrr" Sorry, John, you've had longer to get attached.

Are y'all gonna jump down the chute/hole just because it's in front of you, again

"Wonderful, let's leave" I am with you on that one!

"You know we don't HAVE to kill everything" *side-eyes*

*eyebrow raised* Y'all can't get five minutes without drama

This is part of why I would appreciate time-skips, because it would give time for things to marinate so it feels more natural

Are you sure that's a person and not a scarecrow

Or a kite???

Your charisma score is abysmal isn't it

Arthur my dude you are DEEPLY emotionally unbalanced

I like these guys, lichs are a lot less perturbing than anything else we've hit

Black Goat's minions are more polite than most

Okay Arthur made one charisma save, amazing!

"Are you ready?" "Unrelentingly" *SNORT*

Ahh plot threads at last

"You still need mortal things, right. Right?" ". . . Maybe"

I love that it's unsure if Arthur is just being a stubborn driven little shit or if he might actually be sliding even more sideways from human

And break before episode 15, because I should actually accomplish things today in addition to backseat driving this man's eldritch trashfire romance.

[yandere-mha]

You don't have to write it if you don't want to, but after reading the Hawks and Mirko sharing an SO, I wanted to see what it would be like for yandere! Tamaki and Mirio to share one!

Bro literally anything you could request I will happily do. Just as I do for the lovely @im-here-only-for-yandere-dabi who also made beautiful fanart, you’ve got both got a fan outta me 🙏 Also I’d LOVE doing this because there’s not many poly yandere pairings that (while ever entertaining) would end up being a “productive” pairing, but these two are Different and it’s Refreshing.

ALSO, I do wanna bring up for anyone requesting a multi-pair that I consider “poly pairing” and “shared s/o” to be two different things and the way you word the request may end up changing the results so keep that in mind while requesting (poly means they’re all thirsting each other and shared mean they’re both thirsting you).

TW: KIDNAPPING, ABUSE, UNHEALTHY DYNAMICS, MENTAL ILLNESS, SUICIDE THREAT MENTION.

READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION.

Yandere Tamaki and yandere Mirio x shared!reader:

One of the only yandere parings I can see being able to be in the same room with you as each other. They’re already friends with an established, seemingly unbreakable trust in each other while being almost cosmic opposites. 

What’s always been special about these two since the beginning is that, though they’re very different, they use those differences to improve upon their friendship. They admire and acknowledge each other’s strengths while Mirio they encourage each other to improve upon their weaknesses in a positive way. This would also apply for their “business partnership” with you and will probably end up being both good and... bad.

Something that they both have in common is their fierce protectiveness of you and, like two angry dogs, they would feed off of each other’s aggression and bring out a very scary side to both of them that would’ve been hidden from you otherwise. They’ll take their plans of brutal torture into the other room because neither of them want to scare you, but you’ll hear Tamaki’s enraged shrieking reverberate around the house. Though Mirio will almost always successfully get him to Calm His Shit and remind him of the possibility of you hearing him, you don’t need to be a super sleuth to hear that. 

The way that Mirio will always be able to calm Tamaki is through encouragement and validation in a way that only he seems to be able to do. Unlike you, he is more willing to accept these kinds of compliments in a way that almost makes you feel jealous. However... the way Mirio goes about doing this is definitely not conventional. His encouragement is less like “It’s okay dude you don’t have to literally kill her enemies to be worthy of her presence” and more like “We’ll protect y/n... together! I want to make sure they don’t feel that pain anymore too, but I’ll need your help!” 😬

This is why Tamaki becomes so much more visibly enraged around him whenever you get hurt. Before, he would still be unable to control his emotions, but he would feel guilt about “showing the monster” around you. Now that Mirio, someone he admires, is here to be angry along side him and validate his anger, he doesn’t feel nearly as guilty.

A good thing about this though is that one of the biggest drawbacks of being Tamaki’s s/o is his self-hating rants, mental breakdowns from guilt, and suicidal tendencies. However, with Mirio present, stopping this where it started is a lot easier. He just has a way of dealing with him that no one else does.

I don’t want to say whether this is a good or bad thing depending on your needs, but another drawback to Tamaki that would be “remedied” would be the fact that he would almost always keep a safe distance from you and never touch you due to feeling guilty. Mirio, however, is very touchy-feely and you definitely wouldn’t end up being as touch starved and lonely rather than if you were with Tamaki alone. Tamaki wouldn’t feel jealous by this, considering the fact that he thinks of Mirio as almost equal to you in godliness. If he’s the sun then you’re the moon, the night sky, the planet Venus, and all the stars in space. However... I could see this bringing up an issue.

One thing that Tamaki will never tolerate, even from Mirio, is anyone hurting you in any way. Mirio would never hurt you on purpose, but there are times when he gets... too affectionate and forgets his strength. While Tamaki sees you as an angel, Mirio sees you as a victim he needs to protect. Because of this, he’ll feel the need to embrace you as tightly as possible in order to “make you feel safe”. If Mirio breaks a bone by accident, and he will, Tamaki would go ape shit. I could even see him trying to kill him in a blinded rage to fall down on his knees and beg for forgiveness from both of you afterwards, offering to kill himself. Mirio would forgive him, encouraging him as always, but he’d be on edge whenever he entered the room after that, seeing him as a danger to you even though he was the one to break your wrist. Tamaki takes on too much guilt while Mirio doesn’t want to see his own. 

Another upside to them sharing you is that, if you were only with Tamaki, you’d be having to deal with a lot of boredom while, if you were only with Mirio, you’d literally never get a break from him. Tamaki is shy, quiet, and too paranoid of you getting hurt to let you do anything fun while Mirio loves quality time and will actively try to get all three of you to do something stimulating. He’d never have you do anything dangerous per say, but he might make a weekly tradition of you three playing Mario Kart with each other. He’d see it as his two greatest loved ones having fun together rather than a prisoner and an anxious friend being pressured into playing games with him. Due to Mirio now having two separate people to bug for entertainment, you would not have to shoulder all of that responsibility.

I’ve said before that if you feel nauseated by excessive compliments, you will need a barf bucket living with Tamaki, but hooo boy you don’t know pain until you’ve lived with both of them. They’re both very obsessive and very verbal about their affections, so you’re going to be getting that times two. They’ll even agree with each other and compliment each other on their compliments... 🤮

[peppdream]

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i offer more fanart 🤲🤲 it was supposed to be the final scene of highlight reel but i guess it’s also the end scene of mirage LOL

ignis was also amazing, dream is definitely less “wtf are you doing mate” when seeing things from his pov x)

parking garage <<< “observation deck”

my day be so fine then bOOM phantasm 🥲

bRUHHH ASDFGHJKLKJHGF YOU ARE ON SUCH A ROLL??! it’s only barely been a week and I haven’t even had enough time to come to terms with the first piece and you already be blessing me with MORE ?? AHHH💕

dude this is so pretty,,, the rain droplets and the sky’s colors and the light in the buildings and dream’s shadow wahhhhh it’s so good it’s SO GOOD, WHY’S IT SO GOOOOD

Also George’s ass do be lookin’ fine ahem

how much time do these take you?? like, goodness gracious, the amount of detail you put into all your art is crazy >:0

thank you so so much for your beautiful artwork, you really do be making my week <3